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have you ever thought you wanted something really bad, and then just suddenly changed your mind? i mean nothing happened to make you change your mind, you just knew that you didnt want it anymore. it's really weird and a bit difficult to comprehend. the mind process is just to complex to even try to understand. i thought i wanted this. really really bad. i thought about it for a long time. i thought about every single possibility and consequence. i played out every situation in my head, every way it could end up. and i decided it was worth it. and then everything is going along as normal, and i'm working my way towards getting what i want, and SLAM! i stop and realize i dont want it anymore. it doesnt feel the way it is supposed to. i got a premonition that it would end up bad. so i'm finished. i'm stopping this before it even starts. save the time and trouble for both ends. it's just not worth it, because when it IS worth it, it will feel better than this. i'm positive i'm right about this, so why do i feel so disappointed?