can't stop crying
So tomorrow morning I have to go take big cat to the shelter and have him put to sleep and it's killing me. I love this cat so much it's not even funny. He's always listened to me and knew exactly when I was upset and has always been a better friend to me then I could have ever asked for. He's just so sick, but he looks at me like why are you crying? And then he'll rub his nose all over my forehead and then lay there with his head under my chin. Tonight is the last night I'll have to sleep with him by me and have him cuddled up to me like we do all the time, and I just can't stop from holding him tight.