wow pointless ramblings from a madwomen

[ucanfuckoff]

So, I haven't posted on here in along time. I don't even know where to begin anymore honestly, my life right now is as topsy turvy and unpredictable as a hurrican right now. I've had alot on my mind lately, about life, friends, family, self respect and I've found out that the only one thing out of all those things that really matter to me right now is self-respect....I've come to realize I don't have much of it nowadays! I'm tired of being used and walked all over by people I would like to call my friends but I can't...it's more like I should be calling them leeches. It just seems like the more I bend over and try to please all of them, or try to go out of my way to do things for them that I shouldn't have to do, I just get slapped in the face for it. Just once I would like to get a phone call from one of my friends asking if I want to hang out or watch a movie or just sit around and talk, I'm tired of always having to call and beg and plead for something to do with them. And I'm fucking tired of them making me feel like I'm not wanted around, or that if I'm around then they can't do what they wanna do and they would much rather make excuse to why I can't go with them somewhere.....IT'S GETTING FUCKING OLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well I guess that's all the rambling I have to do for tonight, I'll keep you guys posted on current events.

Mindy