another year...
**I started writing this entry in November & just now completed/posted it...fyi!!!**
I haven't updated in a while...i know, i know...i've been bad about this.
But I did just recently celebrate my birthday and I ALWAYS feel compelled to write at or around a b'day. I guess I tend to reflectively look inward when I get a year older. Today isn't any different.
I still love to write, but I think that nowadays I'm so chill, so mellow. I'm so easy-going and casual that I don't experience the extreme highs and lows that I once did. And consequently, there's a void where there used to be those things that cause or create drama or tension in life, and thus I lack the content needed to make some of those entries interesting. But I'm ok with that. One could argue that by taking yourself out of those intense experiences (or out of harm's way) you're also taking yourself out of the game; that you can't experience real, tangible happiness by standing on the sidelines. While there's merit to that viewpoint, sometimes it's good to take less serious things less seriously. There's value to making incremental progress and to acting prudently or judiciously. I don't know...
I guess I could write about other peoples' drama, but that's not really my style. I like to express things that have a profound affect on me, but let's face it, the old bullshit just doesn't get to me like it used to.
But that being said, we learn a lot from our experiences and I've had my share of experiences that i feel are worth sharing.
it has been an interesting year. i've met some wonderful ppl, strengthened existing friendships, grew apart from others, lost a friend to illness (suddenly),and faced different challenges. And although I still have my own flaws, weaknesses and insecurities, I feel like I've grown up a lot the past year or two. And I'm starting to really feel comfortable in my own skin. I'm mature enough to act accordingly, but not so mature that I forgot how to have fun.
So here's to 2010. May it be better and more prosperous than 2009...
Cheers...
London trip details coming soon!
I haven't updated in a while...i know, i know...i've been bad about this.
But I did just recently celebrate my birthday and I ALWAYS feel compelled to write at or around a b'day. I guess I tend to reflectively look inward when I get a year older. Today isn't any different.
I still love to write, but I think that nowadays I'm so chill, so mellow. I'm so easy-going and casual that I don't experience the extreme highs and lows that I once did. And consequently, there's a void where there used to be those things that cause or create drama or tension in life, and thus I lack the content needed to make some of those entries interesting. But I'm ok with that. One could argue that by taking yourself out of those intense experiences (or out of harm's way) you're also taking yourself out of the game; that you can't experience real, tangible happiness by standing on the sidelines. While there's merit to that viewpoint, sometimes it's good to take less serious things less seriously. There's value to making incremental progress and to acting prudently or judiciously. I don't know...
I guess I could write about other peoples' drama, but that's not really my style. I like to express things that have a profound affect on me, but let's face it, the old bullshit just doesn't get to me like it used to.
But that being said, we learn a lot from our experiences and I've had my share of experiences that i feel are worth sharing.
it has been an interesting year. i've met some wonderful ppl, strengthened existing friendships, grew apart from others, lost a friend to illness (suddenly),and faced different challenges. And although I still have my own flaws, weaknesses and insecurities, I feel like I've grown up a lot the past year or two. And I'm starting to really feel comfortable in my own skin. I'm mature enough to act accordingly, but not so mature that I forgot how to have fun.
So here's to 2010. May it be better and more prosperous than 2009...
Cheers...
London trip details coming soon!