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Erin Ashley Hartstien
i would have sent you a message over myspace but i couldnt find your message thingy
listen. i am truly sorry for not talking to you, i was mad
mad b/c you werent the same erin that i new. and im jealous that you have zack and you see him all the time but not me
and hes like your best friend and i got jealous b/c it was like he took my place.
at first i told myself that i wasnt going to talk to you, but then i was looking back on some pictures and i was like i can't. i miss talking to you, i miss our little spend the nights outside and us being all hyper and talking wack. i miss you being over at my house all the time. i was being stupid when i thought that i didnt want to talk to you. its like my whole life is just turned upside down when i dont talk to you. i miss being able to tell you everything. when i was sad you would make me feel so much better. and if a guy would hurt me you would let them know. and they ended up not likeing you but you didnt care. you just said that he doesnt deserve me. and i would laugh. my momma ask where you are and im like i dunno and she says you dont keep up with her? i was like not really she is just busy. Im trying really hard to make it where when i get mad i just dont completely shut that person out of my life. i hate that i do that. the one thing that you did that made me feel so much better was when kip broke up with me and i put up an update saying that i couldnt go on and you posted a comment with some pic and some comments and that meant oh so much to me. i miss that how you were like my shoulder that i could cry on. could ever forgive me for being a jerkface towards you.
you are me shinning star
and
My friends would always tell me..
'You're too good for him; he doesn't deserve you.'
I told them, let me make that decision on my own,
I think he's worth it.
Well guess what....turns out they were right.
But the last thing I want to hear right now is
'I told you so..'
I tried to drown my problems but the bastard wouldn't go swimming.
i found a picture of you in my drawer
& behind it i wrote "in case of fire, throw in"
When he asked me to "still be friends"
I thought about it and responded,
"Thats like my mom telling me that, Hunny
your dogs dead but you can keep it
thats the comment you put up.
and these remind me of you
