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The last couple of months have taught Kieran absolutely nothing, apparently. So little, in fact, that I begin to despair of him more than a little bit. Didn't I tell him on the night we met that if he wanted to be happy, he really ought to avoid falling in love? I thought it was rather unnecessary to add that he shouldn't fall in love with me at all costs. I really thought he understood. I thought he could accept just having a bit of fun that wasn't ever meant to mean anything more than precisely and exactly what it was.
I suppose I am sorry if Kieran mistook generosity and a desire for a companion to be happy enough to be more or less undemanding for love, but they're not the same thing, and they never will be. I suppose I am sorry I had to be so blunt as to explain to him that I like him well enough, but that he is essentially a convenience to me, but I'd much prefer he shed any residual romantic notions if he wants to stay around at all.
I don't really want to have to get rid of Kieran. I didn't really realise just how much of my time running a business would take. It did have to actually do well, didn't it? So, it is convenient not to have to go out and find someone who interests me any time I want a shag, and it would be difficult to find someone else who is so appealing to me. He really is beautiful.
I suppose I am sorry if Kieran mistook generosity and a desire for a companion to be happy enough to be more or less undemanding for love, but they're not the same thing, and they never will be. I suppose I am sorry I had to be so blunt as to explain to him that I like him well enough, but that he is essentially a convenience to me, but I'd much prefer he shed any residual romantic notions if he wants to stay around at all.
I don't really want to have to get rid of Kieran. I didn't really realise just how much of my time running a business would take. It did have to actually do well, didn't it? So, it is convenient not to have to go out and find someone who interests me any time I want a shag, and it would be difficult to find someone else who is so appealing to me. He really is beautiful.