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well.. since the last update alot has happened... and not much good. shawn passed away, me and angela broke up, i got cheated on by a girl i went out with after her, i quit mcdonalds, i havent had my car for a month now.. today is a year since derek died.. honestly.. i cant think of anything good that has happened lately and i havent really thought of giving up, i dont know whats keeping me going lately.. i quit mcdonalds because a manager there pissed me the fuck off one night and i didnt feel like dealing with his shit, he made me do the same job over and over again for an hour and a half and made me late leaving by almost 45 minutes.. me and angela broke up because.. basically because i wanted to go out with someone else, who ended up cheating on me.. and i didnt go back to her because i felt like i'd be taking advantage of her, i broke up with her before because i wanted to go out with someone else and she took me back, and i'd just feel really bad about abusing whatever trust she had left in me.. i still love her alot though, so im confused as hell about what to do when it comes to her :(.. im going out with a new girl now though, i like her and i've known her for about 6 months, but i dont think ill ever like anyone like i did angela.. atleast not for a long time.. as for my car.. i left it at the dealer when i went to florida, it was there for almost 2 weeks and when i went to go pick it up after getting back to NY.. THEY HADNT FUCKING WORKED ON IT!! so the next day i went to pick up my dad's truck cause it needed an inspection, and was left the same day as my car at a local dealer... for almost 2 weeks.. and guess what... THEY HADNT FUCKING DONE IT!! oh man it pissed me off so bad, and i still havent gotten my car back because everytime i plan on picking it up we get a big ass snow storm or my mom takes too fucking long leaving so its too late to get tehre in time.. ahh man, so w/e, this'll probably be the only update in here for a long time.. i need a fuckin cigarette...