take a bite of my bad girl meat
I figured it was time for a proper update. So…here we go.
I finally got in to see the spine specialist. It was a really quick meeting…she basically asked about my history with lower back pain, pressed on my back and legs (sorry Doc, I did not shave for you), and had me walk and bend over for her. That sounds so dirty! All she really told me was that my Xrays didn't show enough detail about what's going on, especially since they both say different things, and that I need to get a CT scan before she can make a proper diagnosis. She told me to stop yoga (NOOOOOOOO!) for a while and to refrain from a lot of exercise (shh, don't tell her that I was invited to go to the club tonight…) and to see her again in a week. It's super frustrating that there's all this big run around. I just want to know what's wrong and how I can fix it. She thinks it may end up being that I have to go to physical therapy, but even that would be more helpful than the current guessing game. I'm just sick of the pain. And I miss yoga. I don't feel as good as I do when I'm doing yoga. I seriously will just not know what to do with myself if I have to give it up.
*sigh* I feel like serious, hardcore damaged goods.
In other news, my auction for help_haiti raised $400. I had a bit of a problem sticking to my "one highest bidder" thing and so I'm writing three stories instead, but it feels so amazing to know that my writing inspired people to donate so generously to a good cause. I feel bad because I can't donate so much money, but at least I'm able to give back in some way. I'm completely blown away by the whole thing. So, for the next few weeks I may be on hiatus with the 100 Fic Challenge (well, maybe…I never do stick to those statements once I say them, especially since I have so many ideas/outlines). I may write the occasional drabble or two (ya know, keep the creative juices flowing), but I'm going to try to devote a lot of my writing time to the auction fics. As of right now, I only have one concrete request (the other two are general ideas and once they make their donations and tell me *exactly* what they want, I'll be able to start them…) and I'm actually really excited about this particular story. I started writing it and I'm worried that it will turn out to be a bit lengthy…and if that happens, I'll feel totally guilty if I don't do the same thing with the other two fics. AAH the pressure. Okay. *breathes*
My computer is kind of on the verge of death right now. I got hit pretty hard with a nasty virus last week and ended up having to wipe my entire computer and reinstall windows. It sucks. You all probably know how vital my computer is to me so having one that runs so poorly is just killing me. I have nothing on it but anti-virus programs, Yahoo Messenger, and MS Word and it still isn't performing very well. I'm in the process of trying to get a new one…I'm hoping to get something with a better processor and more memory…so fingers crossed that it all works out. At this point I refuse to get my hopes up because if it falls through, I will be devastated. I can only do it under a payment plan because I don't have the money to pay the whole thing up front. *sigh* So…we'll see what happens.
Other things:
+ I love Meryl Streep, 30 Rock, and Gillian Anderson so hardcore right now. *happy sigh*
+ I'm trying to convince my dad to get us a kitten. I'm so lonely with Poof being gone :(
+ Subbing eats my soul.
+ I love me some Lady GaGa. Teeth = hardcore win.
+ Lori and Deb invited me to go to the gay club with them tonight. I'm kinda hoping they cancel since my back hurts and my stomach hurts, but I will still go if everything is still on. I don't want to be that girl who cancels all the time (because I have been known to be that person in the past when I was stuck in my SUPER shy ways..) and I'm desperate to hang out with queer people. Last time I went out, I had to explain to Andrea and Nick how I know that I'm a lesbian since I've never been with a guy. (Um...well, how do you KNOW that you're straight??) and was hit on by the swingers. At least now, pain or not, I'll be with like-minded people who won't perv on me and who like me for me and not just because I'm someone to sit at a table with them, ya know? Plus...I really do want to dance but I'm not sure if that's the best idea with my back the way it is. Sonofabitch. I'm so torn!
+ I have a stomach ache. :(
All right…I think that's about all that's on my mind grapes at the moment. I hope everyone is doing well!
I finally got in to see the spine specialist. It was a really quick meeting…she basically asked about my history with lower back pain, pressed on my back and legs (sorry Doc, I did not shave for you), and had me walk and bend over for her. That sounds so dirty! All she really told me was that my Xrays didn't show enough detail about what's going on, especially since they both say different things, and that I need to get a CT scan before she can make a proper diagnosis. She told me to stop yoga (NOOOOOOOO!) for a while and to refrain from a lot of exercise (shh, don't tell her that I was invited to go to the club tonight…) and to see her again in a week. It's super frustrating that there's all this big run around. I just want to know what's wrong and how I can fix it. She thinks it may end up being that I have to go to physical therapy, but even that would be more helpful than the current guessing game. I'm just sick of the pain. And I miss yoga. I don't feel as good as I do when I'm doing yoga. I seriously will just not know what to do with myself if I have to give it up.
*sigh* I feel like serious, hardcore damaged goods.
In other news, my auction for help_haiti raised $400. I had a bit of a problem sticking to my "one highest bidder" thing and so I'm writing three stories instead, but it feels so amazing to know that my writing inspired people to donate so generously to a good cause. I feel bad because I can't donate so much money, but at least I'm able to give back in some way. I'm completely blown away by the whole thing. So, for the next few weeks I may be on hiatus with the 100 Fic Challenge (well, maybe…I never do stick to those statements once I say them, especially since I have so many ideas/outlines). I may write the occasional drabble or two (ya know, keep the creative juices flowing), but I'm going to try to devote a lot of my writing time to the auction fics. As of right now, I only have one concrete request (the other two are general ideas and once they make their donations and tell me *exactly* what they want, I'll be able to start them…) and I'm actually really excited about this particular story. I started writing it and I'm worried that it will turn out to be a bit lengthy…and if that happens, I'll feel totally guilty if I don't do the same thing with the other two fics. AAH the pressure. Okay. *breathes*
My computer is kind of on the verge of death right now. I got hit pretty hard with a nasty virus last week and ended up having to wipe my entire computer and reinstall windows. It sucks. You all probably know how vital my computer is to me so having one that runs so poorly is just killing me. I have nothing on it but anti-virus programs, Yahoo Messenger, and MS Word and it still isn't performing very well. I'm in the process of trying to get a new one…I'm hoping to get something with a better processor and more memory…so fingers crossed that it all works out. At this point I refuse to get my hopes up because if it falls through, I will be devastated. I can only do it under a payment plan because I don't have the money to pay the whole thing up front. *sigh* So…we'll see what happens.
Other things:
+ I love Meryl Streep, 30 Rock, and Gillian Anderson so hardcore right now. *happy sigh*
+ I'm trying to convince my dad to get us a kitten. I'm so lonely with Poof being gone :(
+ Subbing eats my soul.
+ I love me some Lady GaGa. Teeth = hardcore win.
+ Lori and Deb invited me to go to the gay club with them tonight. I'm kinda hoping they cancel since my back hurts and my stomach hurts, but I will still go if everything is still on. I don't want to be that girl who cancels all the time (because I have been known to be that person in the past when I was stuck in my SUPER shy ways..) and I'm desperate to hang out with queer people. Last time I went out, I had to explain to Andrea and Nick how I know that I'm a lesbian since I've never been with a guy. (Um...well, how do you KNOW that you're straight??) and was hit on by the swingers. At least now, pain or not, I'll be with like-minded people who won't perv on me and who like me for me and not just because I'm someone to sit at a table with them, ya know? Plus...I really do want to dance but I'm not sure if that's the best idea with my back the way it is. Sonofabitch. I'm so torn!
+ I have a stomach ache. :(
All right…I think that's about all that's on my mind grapes at the moment. I hope everyone is doing well!