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I need to start writing in my journal more. I realized that this is the only way I can really track what happened in my life when, because I have a horrible concept of time and a really bad memory to boot.
As I took a look back just to remind myself of how different things are now than they were, I started to remember how I was thinking, how I felt at those times. I want to always remember how I feel- good or bad.
Right now I feel scared. And sad. And confused. And discontented.
I feel that all I can do is wait. Wait to see what will happen with a job, wait to see if things will come around in my relationships, wait for others to change, wait for me to change.
I hate waiting though. I’m seriously impatient. But I have to. I just hope it’s worth my time and patience and heart.
As I took a look back just to remind myself of how different things are now than they were, I started to remember how I was thinking, how I felt at those times. I want to always remember how I feel- good or bad.
Right now I feel scared. And sad. And confused. And discontented.
I feel that all I can do is wait. Wait to see what will happen with a job, wait to see if things will come around in my relationships, wait for others to change, wait for me to change.
I hate waiting though. I’m seriously impatient. But I have to. I just hope it’s worth my time and patience and heart.