Feb 07, 2004 20:54
So here I am, on my first night as a re-bachelor and its really, really boring. Do they have re-bachelor parties? They need to.
Well, I'm not legally single yet, but I am living in an empty house and it sure feels purty single to me.
Jen and I are working on a divorce right now. While its not a messy divorce, it still sucks. Apparently, we don't have anything in common anymore and we can't agree on anything. I disagree with that.
But I didn't come here to make weak puns and feel sorry for myself (although I will...read on!!1!). Alot of you have been asking me how I've been and how's the wife 'n kids, etc, and I've avoided telling anyone about this for a long time. I guess tonight, without the screaming of two kids and without someone to talk to about our day, it's really hit home.
Soon I'll be a statistical majority; A divorced father. There's alot of me that is looking forward to it. The freedom to make my own choices again. The freedom to spend my money on me. But no matter how hard I try, I can't think of enough pros to outweigh the cons. Just not being able to tuck my daughters in every single night is going to break me.
I'll get over it though. I'll still get to see my daughter(s) whenever I want, and there's no animosity between Jen and I. She got an apartment only about a mile away, and she even says she'll cook for me occasionally. I know, its confusing, but I'm done asking questions. I guess besides seeing my girls regularly, there's not much else I could ask for from this situation. Of course I wish the whole thing wasn't happening at all, but I'll take what I can get at this point.