My Life:
Beloit = wonderful. I'm glad I still feel that way about it. I know a couple people who are transferring next semester and I feel badly that they didn't love it here as much as I do. But I've definitely surrounded myself with an amazing group of people. Mostly girls, but there are a few guys here too that I just feel completely comfortable with, and it's beautiful. Basically, I love the people here.
Boys are not so great, but hey, what else is new? I've discovered that I have this terrible habit of only wanting what I can't have. Well, I guess the two I'm thinking of I did have, but not anymore, and only once I couldn't have them was I interested, But I'm proud of myself, I deleted one guy's number from my phone after I stupidly (read: drunkenly) called him last weekend, so no more temptation!
School is good. My grades aren't so great, but I talked to my mom about it, and when I told her that I wasn't a B student, why was I only getting Bs, she said "maybe you're a B student at Beloit." Which is upsetting, but rational. As my English professor says, "this isn't high school anymore." I guess I should just relax and do my best, I don't have to get a 4.0. My focus should be on learning and being happy.
Swim, as always, is stressing me the fuck out. I don't think I'll do it next year. It's just too much, and there's so many other things I want to do that I can't because I have to go to fucking swim practice. I like the team, I finally feel like I'm clicking with some of the people, but it's not worth it to stress myself out the way I do.
Longer entry than I intended to write, and I guess it sounds like I'm unsatisfied, which is not true at all. On the whole, I'm loving it here and loving my life, but I do miss everyone in Tosa. I'll be home from Dec. 20th-Jan 4th, and I want to see everyone, so call or message or something so we can make plans!
Boys are not so great, but hey, what else is new? I've discovered that I have this terrible habit of only wanting what I can't have. Well, I guess the two I'm thinking of I did have, but not anymore, and only once I couldn't have them was I interested, But I'm proud of myself, I deleted one guy's number from my phone after I stupidly (read: drunkenly) called him last weekend, so no more temptation!
School is good. My grades aren't so great, but I talked to my mom about it, and when I told her that I wasn't a B student, why was I only getting Bs, she said "maybe you're a B student at Beloit." Which is upsetting, but rational. As my English professor says, "this isn't high school anymore." I guess I should just relax and do my best, I don't have to get a 4.0. My focus should be on learning and being happy.
Swim, as always, is stressing me the fuck out. I don't think I'll do it next year. It's just too much, and there's so many other things I want to do that I can't because I have to go to fucking swim practice. I like the team, I finally feel like I'm clicking with some of the people, but it's not worth it to stress myself out the way I do.
Longer entry than I intended to write, and I guess it sounds like I'm unsatisfied, which is not true at all. On the whole, I'm loving it here and loving my life, but I do miss everyone in Tosa. I'll be home from Dec. 20th-Jan 4th, and I want to see everyone, so call or message or something so we can make plans!