swing and miss
This weekend we were supposed to meet up with 1.5 bear couples (a couple who moved in with another couple - not in a poly way, at least I don't think so - and one of the guys is out of town at the moment) for dinner. We've talked with these guys before, and they seem like good people, and they know about our social anxieties. They encouraged us to take baby steps, such as starting out with dinner with a small group, so we decided to try that in this, our latest attempt to get out of the funk we've been living in for years now. Sex was discussed and, although it sounded really great, we decided that it probably shouldn't happen the first time we make an attempt to be social, hehe, although to be honest we really have the hots for all four of them :P. They signed offline, but we Were able to get the address from the Heart of Texas Bears member roster...sadly their address was listed as being in Austin, but they actually live in Round Rock. We went to the austin address, and, finding it was completely wrong, tried to call them, but couldn't get through. We went home and tried to message them online, but couldn't get through there, either. After a while realized the mistake we had made, and one of the guys got online, so we were able to confirm the correct address. Unfortunately, it was too late to meet up at that point. They were kind and understood that we had all had a bit of miscommunication, so no fault was placed one anyone.
Strangely enough, though, I felt terrible. Awful. I even started to cry a bit. I felt so horrible that I had made the mistake of not having the correct address. It felt like I had just failed, crashed and burned at what was supposed to be a great, awesome bear get together, with some really cool (and hot) guys. We were going to finally get our feet wet, in an appropriate setting and overall effort to finally not be so lonely in this world. But it failed. I took it really hard, and got pretty depressed, and even cried a bit. After a while I calmed down and realized that they weren't upset with us, that they understood, and that they were even inviting us to try again and to come to the actual correct address in the future, for dinner and hanging out. We're looking forward to the next chance we get to meet them.
Strangely enough, though, I felt terrible. Awful. I even started to cry a bit. I felt so horrible that I had made the mistake of not having the correct address. It felt like I had just failed, crashed and burned at what was supposed to be a great, awesome bear get together, with some really cool (and hot) guys. We were going to finally get our feet wet, in an appropriate setting and overall effort to finally not be so lonely in this world. But it failed. I took it really hard, and got pretty depressed, and even cried a bit. After a while I calmed down and realized that they weren't upset with us, that they understood, and that they were even inviting us to try again and to come to the actual correct address in the future, for dinner and hanging out. We're looking forward to the next chance we get to meet them.