kim jongin's guide to loving oh sehun

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title: kim jongin's guide to loving oh sehun
pairing: i don't know, don't you get sassy with me.
length: oneshot // 7.5k
genre: angst, romance
note: this is sad and boring and long, & the list is based off her poem
Summary: sehun isn't atlas and even kings have scars that never bleed.

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i hate you so much right now. You're sending a whirlwind of emotions right through the little red and mushy organ that's left from my heart because 1) kray-> laughter, 2) sekai -> I CRY 3)your comment -> laughter.
I will send you the bill for my psychiatrist. Really. I love you oh god.

I will start now and don't expect this to make any sense because what is a brain and you know I like quoting and ... I should stop ranting about nothing okay

here a small rant because I love how you characterized sehun and he's so perfect omg (Depressed but bratty)
"a mischievous child yet to be punished for a juvenile crime."
"just that sehun smelled like baby lotion and had the emotional capacity of a rock. "
" a voice that made jongin think of vanilla ice creams with chocolate syrup and rainbow sprinkles on top. "
"when jongin asked why he was talking to him, sehun simply called jongin a bastard. "

"he only pursed his lips shut when they stopped in front of a run-down bar that looked twice as old as his frail friend, joonmyun. joonmyun is in his thirties, so that's saying something. "
you meanie. haha. gramps-jokes never get old though.

"and in this light, sehun was like atlas; the one who carried the burden of over seven billion people on his shoulders. "

"sehun doesn't ask for anything, and maybe that's why jongin feels like it's his mission to give sehun everything. "

"he's sure it's 'like' because when you like someone and they're depressed, you don't send them get well soon cards."

"jongin repeatedly says 'you're loved. you're important. you're wonderful' again and again until his tongue grew weary and sehun starts believing it."

"feelings are better off felt than explained."
THANK YOU

" jongin talked of worn-out 'once upon a time's, never touching the gold-engraved 'the end'swhen the ringing stops, indicating that kyungsoo answered, jongin gushes to tell his friend that he finally gets the character, eri asai from murakami's book, after dark. "
did you just put a refference to one of the only books I took with me when I moved out (a privilege, I must say) in this god damn masterpiece of a fanfiction because -

"(notice that there aren't any periods on the lists, these thoughts are endless)"

SOB
I think I have mentioned more than once that I can't deal with death fic let me sob into your shoulder please
This is so utterly beautiful. Really. I can't even comment much on how perfectly it's written because I am rather speechless but you always leave me wondering
1) how you manage to write so much in such a short period of time
2) how you come up with plots like this
3) how you are so fucking talented
4) what are you feeling. because you're too young to have them experienced all I mean - arghs. how do you feel this point doesn't make sense because I don't know how to articulate in this state
I'm actually glad that I read this before finishing my kaisoo because it feels so dumb now haha I will probably change a lot OTL

LATE IS BETTER THAN NEVER ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?!

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don't fuck with me, teppawesome.
/translation: i am sobbing right now and i don't know i just feel so happy because of you. i love you and i won't strike that.

and i just

1) i think that (aside from 9.8) this one shot took the longest time for me to write /this took a few DAYS/ like srsly don't even. that's why i was frustrated.

2) i think the plot was rather fickle. really. i just added a little bit of detail and facts to make it seem like i wasn't making it all up because yes, i feel like it's silly to have sekai as neighbors.

2.5) i like spaces between my lines tyvm.

3) what is talented. do you eat it? isn't that what you're made up of...

4) of course i don't. i mean i'd have to be gramp's suho's age to have experienced them all. i just read and listen. and fuck~ AND OF COURSE MASSIVE FEELS BECAUSE OF EXO. I HOPE YOU DON'T GET MAD BECAUSE I LET KAISOO SOB ON EACH OTHER'S SHOULDERS

I JUST HAVE TO DO THAT OKAY.

happy probably doesn't even cover this okay.

and what do you mean by feels so dumb. GOD DO YOU KNOW I BOW DOWN AT YOUR WORDS BECAUSE TEPPAWESOME. SORRY I AM NEVER GONNA GET TIRED OF THAT.

p.s. murakami is like.... . .. .i don't know man. his works are simply stunning and they creep me out sometimes. especially the mirror part in after dark.

I LOVE YOU~

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now you know how I generally feel when writing with you because how and wow

1) that's sad because it often takes me, like, a month for finishing a oneshot.
2) sekai neighbours are the best though
2.5) I don't
3) it's that faint fog that's swirling around in your brain
4) I hoped so haha and I CAN FORGIVE YOU BECAUSE REASONS YOU WILL SEE

I'm just letting you know that I'm starting another kaisoo atm and that means you'll get two and why am I doing this but I'm in a drama mood and muse isn't doing anything good for that okay

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1) Lucky you, there's a nagging voice in my head that won't shut up unless i write a specific word count for a day. can we exchange brains plz. yours sounds calmer and better and gheier and i would die.

2) i should have added a part where jongin wanted to peek into naked sehun but oh well. why didn't i think of that.

2.5) why are we writing like this. this is kawaii desu~ though not to mention that spaces are pleasing to the eyes. sort of like my face.

3) let's skype later when i'm being useless on bed so i can show you the meaning of talent and how much of it is actually in your brain.

4) are you gonna give some sekai moments in that kaisoo one shot

yes please oh my god. make the other one nc-17 because i failed at the kray one /sobs sparkles over your chest and shoulders and wipes them on your face/ & why are you torturing yourself with that ;A; i'm in a good modd now so /super-glued hugs/

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1) mine is just screaming YOU ARE SO LAZY HAHAHAHA so yeah let's change

2) who wouldn't have tried that come on

2.5) I LOVE YOU HAHAHAHA

3) I'll be at a friend's idk for how long.. maybe I can get skype on my phone too LOL

4) yes I am sorry

I don't know how to porn though but I will try oh god hah ahaha
/I#m torturing myself FOR YOU :))))))

death is okay, when it's written so beautifully like this

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1) actually don't. i'm yawning too much and i have already slept for 9 hours PLUS i took a 3-hour nap this afternoon. and i still feel like it isn't enough. you'll be in comatose.

/conflicted about the grammar with the word 'comatose'. how do you use it.

2) me. i try to avoid peeking in general because come on, i'm lien. i should get the VIP treatment and have the best view of everything.

3) maybe you should. it's easy and cute ;-;

4) okay. it's okay. as long as sehun doesn't try something on kai like, i don't know; groping or biting or sucking or touchy touching in general.

you so can porn.
i'm not a masochist. i think you're using me as an excuse to write something dramatic but it's okay anyway. is there a word greater than i love you because i don't know. it doesn't seem enough for me and you. but i love you. or as lay would say; 'i very love you'.

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1) still sounds better than mine OTL

/ haha http://www.dict.cc/?s=comatose

2) true. on your lap.

3) got it! I'll be online haha :D

4) who knows. I wrote 1.1k words so far and will leave now though because I need food and friend needs me LOL

NO. if you say this, you have never seen someone who can really porn.
that was the most geeky confession ever because you know I love lay and I very love you too <3

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by the way, i am so so so so sorry that i forgot how you feel about death fics.
i nearly forgot jongin died here too. i was mostly thinking of sehun ;~: