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Feb 26, 2004 17:37

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uberbuni February 26 2004, 22:04:41 UTC
it's all about failure! i'm just at a very low point right now.
i hate incessant optimists.
those karmatic buffoons 'trust the universe', as if the chaos the surrounds us is any sort of comfort.
or pessimists who deny LIFE. damn nihilists. there is no talking to them. everything is reduced to nothing.

life is really super great, but right now I HAVE EXISTENTIAL FEELINGS.
i mean, i just moved to a new city and i have no friends and everything is going wrong, i'm sick with headaches and anxiety and weird hallucinations all night without sleeping, i've been to jail for bureaucratic reasons (no ID, wrong place). all my stuff for work is breaking and i am having the worst communication breakdown with a client i've ever had (there is 3 of them, different cities). and the only person (friend) i knew when i moved here is pretty sad so she's been lost in space and not around much at all. but today i bought raisin bread at the bakery. it's really tasty. i'm making toast.

on another note, in reply to your comment:

being right is just lacking the ability to irrefute ones beliefs and a sort of knowledge impotency.
vive l'absurdité. everyone should be happy, but for no good reason necessarily.

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tile February 26 2004, 22:07:18 UTC
i think people try to sum up days as good and bad, when days and hours and life, aren't really like that at all.

i mean, my community of friends, a week ago tomorrow, lost someone close.

but today i am wearing pink shoes and it is making me happy.

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