Lethbridge Love Affair...
Matt and I have been seeing each other multiple times a week since November 1st 2009 when we had our first coffee date and I can honestly say I am so deeply in love with him. He moved to Lethbridge October 13th 2010 and I booked a ticket to visit him on the 18th. I just want to be WITH him. Not ALL the time haha people do need space and personal time, but aside from that weee smount, haha I could decide whether to say amount or smidge, of time away I mostly want to be together. He's amazing! He's artistic, he's a gentleman, a great cook, talented musician...what more could a girl want? (that being said he doesn't wear shining armor or ride a gallant white steed, but nobody's perfect!)
So I'm here in Lethbridge for a visit, I wish I could stay longer...like a month...or forever. He's got himself a nice 2 bedroom apartment, no furniture yet except a bed, kitchen table and a chair he sits in to play guitar/bass, but the rest of his furniture is arriving from McMurray soon. I want to go shopping and decorate his place(he's at work and I'm bored, and possibly very over-bearing for even wanting to decorate HIS place), I really want to move here and make it our place. We've talked about it here and there but never really made any solid statements or claims.(that sounds pretty wishy-washy...but we both are...even if he says it's only me)
What would I do here? The jobs don't pay very well...the University courses don't transfer very well, and I don't know anybody...I want to be here so bad but I'm scared that if I did move in with Matt he'd get tired of trying to entertain me and listen to me whine about being bored and missing my friends and family. It's 11hrs away from everything I've ever known...but when I'm home in Fort McMurray I'm 11hrs away from the man I know and love...I know if this is ever going to work I'm going to have to move...but what if it all turns out for the worst like the last time I was in love and moved out? That spec of doubt and unknowing just sends my nerves into a bundle and twists my stomach into a knot as complex as the celts make!