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i think i want people to know i'm bi now... my sister figured it out... i've spent most of preseason dropping hints to people... i know it's stupid because it's just going to make me more of an outsider, but i figure how bad can it get?? i already hate it here and it's made me suicidal before... i'm not even looking for people to be open minded either... i've got 2 years left (i'm only half way through)... god i wish i was going to college... but i think the real reason i keep dropping hints is to find someone who either understands and accepts it or to find someone who i could actually have a relationship with (i know it's really really weird) if i went to public school i could have a normal high school life... but no i'm here at the abbey with really only 2 friends but right now it doesn't seem long before they leave too