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I feel so frustrated right now. Why am I such a horrible person that I can't just feel happy for people that I love when good things happen to them?? No, instead, I feel jealous and like I'm not cool enough or pretty enough or likable enough or friendly enough to have the same things happen to me. As if it has to be a competition. I hate that I keep going back and forth so much between feeling ultra confident and wonderful and then feeling jealous and petty and unsatisfactory. As you can tell I'm feeling the latter right now, otherwise I would be writing about how wonderful everything is and how happy I am. Ugh. Okay, though, I'm going to get ready to go and try to be social and meet people and solve the aforementioned problems.