Meme stolen from Dimruthien
First Name:
Cass, or CJ. Well, technically and legally my first name is Cassandra, thanks to my Father. My Mother wanted to call me Imogen or Bailey-Apricot. I don't think i'm an Imogen, and i think Bailey-Apricot sounds like a hooker or some kind of liquor. Most of my friends call me CJ, as it's just how everyone knows me. Sometimes, behind closed bedroom doors i'm Cass, and my family call me that aswell as some very old friends. I once had a mate who analysed the Cj/Cass relationship: She said that Cj was the fun, charismatic me, with mates, making jokes, on stage. Cassy was the girl that gave her advice and acted as her therapist. Cassy let her cry on her shoulder. Cassy was the girl who's mouth quirked up slightly to the side in the tiniest smile when the person she liked showed her tenderness, like a kiss on the cheek or forhead. Cj was the girl who pretended kisses on the cheeks were for woosies and romantics. She said i was both Cj and Cass, I said she needed to stop stalking me :p
Age:
19
Location:
Darwin, NT, Australia
Occupation:
i don't have one. Even if i got this last week when i had a job, i would have said i didn't have one. An occupation is a career, and i know there are lots of things i want to do. I want to do more art, i love art, i would happily live out of the back of a Van, driving around selling my art. I also love teaching and hope, in a few decades, to be a secondary teacher. I also really want to go overseas and volunteer with Amnesty International or some such organisation.
Partner:
lol, No go. Don't have one of them either! i was with my ex, Owain, for about 18 months, but that's over. I have a bit of a no strings thing going on atm (at the moment, NOT ass to mouth, you perve!) which i'm clinging too for some kind of affection right now. everyone in Darwin knows about that, but it seems to be a taboo subject on our blogs :p i wonder who decided that? but yeah, i'm essentially single, especially will be in january. falling asleep with no-one next to you takes a lot of getting used too...
Kids:
none. maybe one day, not soon though.
Brothers/Sisters:
Calin. you ALL know Calin. we really didn't get along at all for a very long time. he was a real dick to me for a whole lot of years, the friends i've had the longest will testify to that. Lily has beat him up for me when he got really angry at me a number of times when we were kids. Lana was there, five years ago, when he attacked me every afternoon with pool cues, chairs, his fists. i was a wimp, and i'm still petrified of him even though i haven't had to run away from him in over a year. i think it was a mental thing, but for the later parts of my childhood and most of my teens i was absolutelty terrified of him, and i felt so stupid, cos he's younger than me. but he'd hold me down and spit on my face cos he was bored. i remember once, he locked me in dads room for two days (dad was away). i freaked out terribly. y'know that scene in gingersnaps when Ginger is locked in the bathroom and she attacks the door, and there's nail marks and blood all over it? yeah, it was pretty close to that. i used to flinch every time her walked behind me.
wow, i;ve never written any of that before.
but we get along better now, especially when he's sober and happy. you all know he has a drug problem and it;s just dumb, cos he;s actually very smart, especially at maths. i'm just waiting for him to grow up, hopefully he'll realise his life is crap and do something about it one of these days, and we'll look back and laugh in ten years. he;s a good kid really
Pets:
i have a cat named Fizzgig who we've had for about 11 years. he's essentially my cat though as he hates cal (cal wasn;t very nice to fizzgig when he was a kitten) and dad isn't a big cat fan. he sleeps in my room. i hope i find an apartment soon that fizzgig is aloud to live in. he meows lots, but thats ok cos i love him. cal also has a rat named doris who is lovely, and we have two dogs, remi and chewie, a labrador, and a collie cross.
3-5 Biggest Things Going on in Your Life:
- the house hunt. obvs me and dimmie STILL haven't found a place to live. it's impossible, everything is expensive, and we're running out of spunk.
- the possible job. i really, Really, REALLY want to be the Youth Services trainee for DCC next year. i want to work for Grind, and the Youth Advisory Group. i want to organise the big gig, and get my cert in youth work. i just feel like right now, thats what i should be doing, what i NEED tp be doing and i REALLY want the job!!! fingers crossed for me?
- well, i'm going to be moving out of home. away from the nest, so to speak. i hope my wings are strong enough, i think they probably are. i don't worry enough.
Parents:
My father's name is Brennan, and my Mother's is Toni. my mother left my father when i was about 7, and we lived with him ever since. i love my dad very much. He;s a lovely man and all my mates like him, as he's laid back, fun, and a really nice guy. he liked owain, i liked owain too, but oh well. dad really doesn't understand the whole body mod thing, he looks like he's in pain every time i get a new one which makes me a bit sad. But he still tells me i;m beautiful every time he gets a chance. he tells me he;s proud of me every day.
My mum lives in Cairns, has done pretty much since we moved to canberra when i was in Grade 3. she has depression issues as her dad was a dick and she was prety messed up as a teen. personally i think she's undiagnosed Bi-Polar. she smokes pot with my brother when we go to visit. in year 7 she moved to canberra because she missed us so much, she didn't like it ery much there and tried to kill herself. her roommate found her. i wasn't upset at all, whihc my therapist found VERY interesting. cal didn't understand. mum calls about once every two weeks for a catch up. soemtimes she;s drunk. sometimes she cries lots. sometimes she asks us to live with her, that she'll buy us a car if we do. my mother can't afford a car. i love her, but she's dumb and i'm glad i stayed with dad. sometimes when she calls it's fun and we laugh a lot.
Friends:
i used to have many more friends than i do now, but i've been pruning i suppose, and i've got a lot of good aquintances, i'll just list a few people i see or talk to a lot, or who mean lots to me.
Lily. I;ve known her since i was 8 and i love her more than anyone else in the world. this girl's laugh will cheer up the worst mood. we've put each other through a lot of shit (involving me and her brothers.... man lily, i'm so glad you still talk to me after all that!) but we are still as close as ever. i really don't talk to her much at all, and i see her usually once a year. when i do it's like i never left. Her partner, Ash, who is an amazing guy who i also care lots about also, says that me and lily have this weird bond that he can't even understand. i'm not sure i understand what he means at all by that, but that's ok. we've started drifting a bit recently, i don't think she really gets the whole piercing thing either, but i know we'll still be besties. we've always said that we'd either end up married, blissful lesbians (which won't happen, as Ash is perfect for her), or best mates, my kids would call her Auntie lily and she'd sneak them treats when i wasn;t looking. getting old isn't scary when i know she's a phone call away.
Dimmie. So, i've only known her for less than a year, but we are slightly inseperable these days. We kinda have an understanding, from probably the second i saw her forearm and she saw my facial expression, that we had both been through a lot. obviously, we plan on moving in together and rooming, and i think we'll be able to actually live together peacfully, not so sure about Matt though :p. dimmie and i can joke around about pretty much anything, and manage to talk about a whole lot else aswell. theres pretty much no judgement at all between us. i could probably do just about any stupid act and she wouldn't look at me differently. i'm lucky to have her and i love her a whole bunch.
lana. my first friend in Darwin! i love you lala! she's a pretty cool ass biatch and we just click. lana's eyes twinkle when she smiles. like dimmie, she doesn;t care about the stupid shit i do, and i don't care about the stupid shit she does, and she's done a bit of it these past few years. she's a groovey lady, and i used to call her mother 'mum' aswell. we were two peas in a pod for ages, until she droped outta school and we kinda drifted. luckily, we're still thick as thieves though, as she is the person that laughs the hardest at all of my jokes.
Louisa. ok, so Lou is a girl i was kinda friends with in canberra, i was mean to her in year 7 and it makes me sad everytime i think about it. for the twitterers here, you'll know her as my mate LudicrousLouisa, often found marathon chatting with me and another mate from canberra, Torratz (who is a bad ass mofo in her own right, love ya girl. do you understand though, why lou needs a mention here and you don't? you're a smart girl, i'm sure you can figure out why she's special to me :)) Louisa is an art school Lesbian just waiting for someone, ANYONE to take an interest in her. sometimes i wish i was in canberra so i could show her that she is beautiful and funny and amazing, but i'm not, so that's not gonna happen. She's so fucking funny i don't understand half her jokes. she also has an odd obsession with robert smith, possibly because she does, infact, look a tad like him. she's one of the most talented artists i know and i really, REALLY hope that all you canberra lesbians go find her, cos she's a fucking catch. she;s another one who really doesn't 'get' the whole piercing thing... i hope it doesn't bother her too much though.
Clancy. we used to be very close. all through highschool i'd be behind her, whispering her the answer, reminding her who Bill Clinton was, what a square root was, what 'insufferable' meant. she had absolutely no confidence and i told her every day that she was smart and capable and beautiful. we don't really talk anymore. she went off and got a boyfriend a few months ago, whats his name? lloyd? luke? i dunno, but he has stupid pants. anyway, she ignored me for ages, so i'm totally over her shit. she dated dan for a few weeks over chrissie (before cammy did) and that ended really badly, and they both acted so childishly i kinda got sick of both of them and it hasn;t been the same all year. she needs to grow up and then give me a call.
Lori. Lori is one smooth motherfucker. I've known her since the start of the year porfessionally (as she owns Vogue piercing, THE place to be pierced in Darwin) but the last few months and weeks especially i;ve got to know her a lot more. she's a somewhat intimidating chick if you don't know her, and a very intimidating chick if you do know her, but she's hilarious and passionate. i think i really respect her passion for just about everything, Lori either cares deeply or couldn't give a stuff and it must be exhausting! she's done a lot for me recently which she really hasn't had to at all and it's just been amazing to know she'll help me out if i need it. She has a wonderful, beautiful daughter named Rosey who i absolutely adore. if i have a kid half as amazing as Rosey-bear then i will be incredibly chuffed. Lori is an amazing mum and i'm really, really greatful that she's let me into her home so freely to get to know her, and her daughter. she also makes a mean, well, lori cooks up a mean anything. delish! :p
Cammy. i first met cammy about 4 years ago through VampireFreaks.com. lol! we have a lot in common, we both used to be goths and are now bogan hippies, both classically trained singers (although she has had MUCH more training than me and it shows. girl, you work that vibrato!) and we both have a slightly unhealthy obsession with faeries. she's got so much joy bursting out of her, and her smile's contagious. Cammy has had a whole lota heartache and tradgedy this year, and she's still here, her amazing self, coping the way she knows how, and girl, you shine away. you're a star.
Jared. So Jared is the newest edition to the list as i've only known him well for the last few weeks, although we met when he came over a few months ago from america. For the canberra readers, Jared's the guy i've been... er... hanging out with... *cough* since Owain ditched me. This kid is hilarious, espeically when he teams up with Lori, bring on the cultural references! he's a pretty cool dude and i'm gonna miss him a whole fucking lot when he goes state side in january. i try not to think about it, to be honest, and i don't know if that's a good idea or not. he should never stop smiling, (actually, he's rarely not smiling) because he really had the best smile around, it lights up a room and is mischeviously contagious. Jared needs to learn to stop worrying, but he'll never listen to me. i think we should build a box fort, he thinks it would be too hot. he makes funny noises and does weird things when people make sex jokes *insert jared noises*. he makes me giggle a lot
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Cass, or CJ. Well, technically and legally my first name is Cassandra, thanks to my Father. My Mother wanted to call me Imogen or Bailey-Apricot. I don't think i'm an Imogen, and i think Bailey-Apricot sounds like a hooker or some kind of liquor. Most of my friends call me CJ, as it's just how everyone knows me. Sometimes, behind closed bedroom doors i'm Cass, and my family call me that aswell as some very old friends. I once had a mate who analysed the Cj/Cass relationship: She said that Cj was the fun, charismatic me, with mates, making jokes, on stage. Cassy was the girl that gave her advice and acted as her therapist. Cassy let her cry on her shoulder. Cassy was the girl who's mouth quirked up slightly to the side in the tiniest smile when the person she liked showed her tenderness, like a kiss on the cheek or forhead. Cj was the girl who pretended kisses on the cheeks were for woosies and romantics. She said i was both Cj and Cass, I said she needed to stop stalking me :p
Age:
19
Location:
Darwin, NT, Australia
Occupation:
i don't have one. Even if i got this last week when i had a job, i would have said i didn't have one. An occupation is a career, and i know there are lots of things i want to do. I want to do more art, i love art, i would happily live out of the back of a Van, driving around selling my art. I also love teaching and hope, in a few decades, to be a secondary teacher. I also really want to go overseas and volunteer with Amnesty International or some such organisation.
Partner:
lol, No go. Don't have one of them either! i was with my ex, Owain, for about 18 months, but that's over. I have a bit of a no strings thing going on atm (at the moment, NOT ass to mouth, you perve!) which i'm clinging too for some kind of affection right now. everyone in Darwin knows about that, but it seems to be a taboo subject on our blogs :p i wonder who decided that? but yeah, i'm essentially single, especially will be in january. falling asleep with no-one next to you takes a lot of getting used too...
Kids:
none. maybe one day, not soon though.
Brothers/Sisters:
Calin. you ALL know Calin. we really didn't get along at all for a very long time. he was a real dick to me for a whole lot of years, the friends i've had the longest will testify to that. Lily has beat him up for me when he got really angry at me a number of times when we were kids. Lana was there, five years ago, when he attacked me every afternoon with pool cues, chairs, his fists. i was a wimp, and i'm still petrified of him even though i haven't had to run away from him in over a year. i think it was a mental thing, but for the later parts of my childhood and most of my teens i was absolutelty terrified of him, and i felt so stupid, cos he's younger than me. but he'd hold me down and spit on my face cos he was bored. i remember once, he locked me in dads room for two days (dad was away). i freaked out terribly. y'know that scene in gingersnaps when Ginger is locked in the bathroom and she attacks the door, and there's nail marks and blood all over it? yeah, it was pretty close to that. i used to flinch every time her walked behind me.
wow, i;ve never written any of that before.
but we get along better now, especially when he's sober and happy. you all know he has a drug problem and it;s just dumb, cos he;s actually very smart, especially at maths. i'm just waiting for him to grow up, hopefully he'll realise his life is crap and do something about it one of these days, and we'll look back and laugh in ten years. he;s a good kid really
Pets:
i have a cat named Fizzgig who we've had for about 11 years. he's essentially my cat though as he hates cal (cal wasn;t very nice to fizzgig when he was a kitten) and dad isn't a big cat fan. he sleeps in my room. i hope i find an apartment soon that fizzgig is aloud to live in. he meows lots, but thats ok cos i love him. cal also has a rat named doris who is lovely, and we have two dogs, remi and chewie, a labrador, and a collie cross.
3-5 Biggest Things Going on in Your Life:
- the house hunt. obvs me and dimmie STILL haven't found a place to live. it's impossible, everything is expensive, and we're running out of spunk.
- the possible job. i really, Really, REALLY want to be the Youth Services trainee for DCC next year. i want to work for Grind, and the Youth Advisory Group. i want to organise the big gig, and get my cert in youth work. i just feel like right now, thats what i should be doing, what i NEED tp be doing and i REALLY want the job!!! fingers crossed for me?
- well, i'm going to be moving out of home. away from the nest, so to speak. i hope my wings are strong enough, i think they probably are. i don't worry enough.
Parents:
My father's name is Brennan, and my Mother's is Toni. my mother left my father when i was about 7, and we lived with him ever since. i love my dad very much. He;s a lovely man and all my mates like him, as he's laid back, fun, and a really nice guy. he liked owain, i liked owain too, but oh well. dad really doesn't understand the whole body mod thing, he looks like he's in pain every time i get a new one which makes me a bit sad. But he still tells me i;m beautiful every time he gets a chance. he tells me he;s proud of me every day.
My mum lives in Cairns, has done pretty much since we moved to canberra when i was in Grade 3. she has depression issues as her dad was a dick and she was prety messed up as a teen. personally i think she's undiagnosed Bi-Polar. she smokes pot with my brother when we go to visit. in year 7 she moved to canberra because she missed us so much, she didn't like it ery much there and tried to kill herself. her roommate found her. i wasn't upset at all, whihc my therapist found VERY interesting. cal didn't understand. mum calls about once every two weeks for a catch up. soemtimes she;s drunk. sometimes she cries lots. sometimes she asks us to live with her, that she'll buy us a car if we do. my mother can't afford a car. i love her, but she's dumb and i'm glad i stayed with dad. sometimes when she calls it's fun and we laugh a lot.
Friends:
i used to have many more friends than i do now, but i've been pruning i suppose, and i've got a lot of good aquintances, i'll just list a few people i see or talk to a lot, or who mean lots to me.
Lily. I;ve known her since i was 8 and i love her more than anyone else in the world. this girl's laugh will cheer up the worst mood. we've put each other through a lot of shit (involving me and her brothers.... man lily, i'm so glad you still talk to me after all that!) but we are still as close as ever. i really don't talk to her much at all, and i see her usually once a year. when i do it's like i never left. Her partner, Ash, who is an amazing guy who i also care lots about also, says that me and lily have this weird bond that he can't even understand. i'm not sure i understand what he means at all by that, but that's ok. we've started drifting a bit recently, i don't think she really gets the whole piercing thing either, but i know we'll still be besties. we've always said that we'd either end up married, blissful lesbians (which won't happen, as Ash is perfect for her), or best mates, my kids would call her Auntie lily and she'd sneak them treats when i wasn;t looking. getting old isn't scary when i know she's a phone call away.
Dimmie. So, i've only known her for less than a year, but we are slightly inseperable these days. We kinda have an understanding, from probably the second i saw her forearm and she saw my facial expression, that we had both been through a lot. obviously, we plan on moving in together and rooming, and i think we'll be able to actually live together peacfully, not so sure about Matt though :p. dimmie and i can joke around about pretty much anything, and manage to talk about a whole lot else aswell. theres pretty much no judgement at all between us. i could probably do just about any stupid act and she wouldn't look at me differently. i'm lucky to have her and i love her a whole bunch.
lana. my first friend in Darwin! i love you lala! she's a pretty cool ass biatch and we just click. lana's eyes twinkle when she smiles. like dimmie, she doesn;t care about the stupid shit i do, and i don't care about the stupid shit she does, and she's done a bit of it these past few years. she's a groovey lady, and i used to call her mother 'mum' aswell. we were two peas in a pod for ages, until she droped outta school and we kinda drifted. luckily, we're still thick as thieves though, as she is the person that laughs the hardest at all of my jokes.
Louisa. ok, so Lou is a girl i was kinda friends with in canberra, i was mean to her in year 7 and it makes me sad everytime i think about it. for the twitterers here, you'll know her as my mate LudicrousLouisa, often found marathon chatting with me and another mate from canberra, Torratz (who is a bad ass mofo in her own right, love ya girl. do you understand though, why lou needs a mention here and you don't? you're a smart girl, i'm sure you can figure out why she's special to me :)) Louisa is an art school Lesbian just waiting for someone, ANYONE to take an interest in her. sometimes i wish i was in canberra so i could show her that she is beautiful and funny and amazing, but i'm not, so that's not gonna happen. She's so fucking funny i don't understand half her jokes. she also has an odd obsession with robert smith, possibly because she does, infact, look a tad like him. she's one of the most talented artists i know and i really, REALLY hope that all you canberra lesbians go find her, cos she's a fucking catch. she;s another one who really doesn't 'get' the whole piercing thing... i hope it doesn't bother her too much though.
Clancy. we used to be very close. all through highschool i'd be behind her, whispering her the answer, reminding her who Bill Clinton was, what a square root was, what 'insufferable' meant. she had absolutely no confidence and i told her every day that she was smart and capable and beautiful. we don't really talk anymore. she went off and got a boyfriend a few months ago, whats his name? lloyd? luke? i dunno, but he has stupid pants. anyway, she ignored me for ages, so i'm totally over her shit. she dated dan for a few weeks over chrissie (before cammy did) and that ended really badly, and they both acted so childishly i kinda got sick of both of them and it hasn;t been the same all year. she needs to grow up and then give me a call.
Lori. Lori is one smooth motherfucker. I've known her since the start of the year porfessionally (as she owns Vogue piercing, THE place to be pierced in Darwin) but the last few months and weeks especially i;ve got to know her a lot more. she's a somewhat intimidating chick if you don't know her, and a very intimidating chick if you do know her, but she's hilarious and passionate. i think i really respect her passion for just about everything, Lori either cares deeply or couldn't give a stuff and it must be exhausting! she's done a lot for me recently which she really hasn't had to at all and it's just been amazing to know she'll help me out if i need it. She has a wonderful, beautiful daughter named Rosey who i absolutely adore. if i have a kid half as amazing as Rosey-bear then i will be incredibly chuffed. Lori is an amazing mum and i'm really, really greatful that she's let me into her home so freely to get to know her, and her daughter. she also makes a mean, well, lori cooks up a mean anything. delish! :p
Cammy. i first met cammy about 4 years ago through VampireFreaks.com. lol! we have a lot in common, we both used to be goths and are now bogan hippies, both classically trained singers (although she has had MUCH more training than me and it shows. girl, you work that vibrato!) and we both have a slightly unhealthy obsession with faeries. she's got so much joy bursting out of her, and her smile's contagious. Cammy has had a whole lota heartache and tradgedy this year, and she's still here, her amazing self, coping the way she knows how, and girl, you shine away. you're a star.
Jared. So Jared is the newest edition to the list as i've only known him well for the last few weeks, although we met when he came over a few months ago from america. For the canberra readers, Jared's the guy i've been... er... hanging out with... *cough* since Owain ditched me. This kid is hilarious, espeically when he teams up with Lori, bring on the cultural references! he's a pretty cool dude and i'm gonna miss him a whole fucking lot when he goes state side in january. i try not to think about it, to be honest, and i don't know if that's a good idea or not. he should never stop smiling, (actually, he's rarely not smiling) because he really had the best smile around, it lights up a room and is mischeviously contagious. Jared needs to learn to stop worrying, but he'll never listen to me. i think we should build a box fort, he thinks it would be too hot. he makes funny noises and does weird things when people make sex jokes *insert jared noises*. he makes me giggle a lot
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