God called in sick today
Today just isn't my best day. Before school, I somehow managed to spill a full can of chocolate slim fast all over everything I own. I walk in Aaron's house, and he decides to be rude the entire time I'm there, I guess he had to keep the trend going from the night before when he was at my house, and left early so he could go home ad play Star Wars. I mean, am I such a bore?
I'm just not satisfied with my life as of now. I'm not satisfied with who I've become, or who I've chosen to be friends with over the past year. I'm at a point that I just want to give up on myself and everyone around me. I mean, don't get me wrong, I love my friends. I love Stuart, Bekah, and everyone else. I love my boyfriend with all my heart. I'm just... not satisfied. I've never had a day that I wish would never end because it was so good. Not since 8th grade anyway.
I've chosen to become friends with people who already at the time had best friends, and could ditch me anyday and not think twice about it. Stuart, Laci, Chelsea at one point. I hate that when Aaron has to work one night, I can't just call Stuart or anyone else up and ask whats going on that night. I can't because I Know that they already have plans. I hate that I have to stay at home and wait on him to get home. Only to go to his house and argue.
I've missed so much school this year that any minute, the cops could come up here and take me out of a class and arrest me a second time for truancy.
I've moved so far away that if my Dad ever goes out of town, I'm shit out of luck, because my own boyfriends won't even come get me to take me to school, KNOWING that everyday I miss is another day in jail, because GOD FORBID he get up alittle earlier.
I'm just not satisfied with any aspect of my life right now. Sorry to ramble. Had to vent.
I'm just not satisfied with my life as of now. I'm not satisfied with who I've become, or who I've chosen to be friends with over the past year. I'm at a point that I just want to give up on myself and everyone around me. I mean, don't get me wrong, I love my friends. I love Stuart, Bekah, and everyone else. I love my boyfriend with all my heart. I'm just... not satisfied. I've never had a day that I wish would never end because it was so good. Not since 8th grade anyway.
I've chosen to become friends with people who already at the time had best friends, and could ditch me anyday and not think twice about it. Stuart, Laci, Chelsea at one point. I hate that when Aaron has to work one night, I can't just call Stuart or anyone else up and ask whats going on that night. I can't because I Know that they already have plans. I hate that I have to stay at home and wait on him to get home. Only to go to his house and argue.
I've missed so much school this year that any minute, the cops could come up here and take me out of a class and arrest me a second time for truancy.
I've moved so far away that if my Dad ever goes out of town, I'm shit out of luck, because my own boyfriends won't even come get me to take me to school, KNOWING that everyday I miss is another day in jail, because GOD FORBID he get up alittle earlier.
I'm just not satisfied with any aspect of my life right now. Sorry to ramble. Had to vent.