I Spilled Tears on my Computer...

[uber_corp]

Why does everybody hate me? Maybe I really am as horrible as "they" say I am... or maybe I just live in terror of not being misunderstood. I wish I had real friends. I'm not sure if I even remember what that feels like. Now getting blown off, that stays fresh on the memory. I don't know what to say...I guess I'm just sick of having my feelings hurt

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My two cents.

[uber_pdx]

Savy,
As you're real friend I believe that I can talk very candidly to you. I believe that you have real friends out there, me included. However, you also are developing or have developed shallow relationships. It happens to all of us. It sucks too. You get confused and even a bit jaded trying to figure out who your real friends are. Sometimes we burn bridges between our real friends by not keeping promises. However a real friend will allow and help re-build those bridges.

I got to tell you Savannah, the other night when I was in town and we hung out I was pretty fucking disenchanted with everything. I was disenchanted with the schleps at Paul's, I was disenchanted with you hitting me up to buy you a drink when I am dead fucking broke with no job or income coming in at all.

But the Coup d' Grace of the whole fucking night(and yes I will devote a paragraph for this) was you running up to give Mindee Deal a hug. I could not believe my eyes. I was so blinded by hate and rage when I saw her that I was not even thinking clearly. The fact that she gave me an ultimatum to sign rights away to what was going to be my child or she would have an abortion is a piece of shit thing to do. And you fucking and you fucking hang out with that fucking cunt. You see, I started to wonder right then and there if you were even my real friend. Oh yeah, I will spare the tons of shit talking she did on you while I was with that cunt. She is as fucking shallow as they come.

Savannah, as your friend I would like to see you do well. Shit, I know George would, Ally would, your sister and your mother would too. Cut the crap with the fucking schleps. Finish school and seek higher education. You are a talented writer, singer and have an eye for style. Do something with it please. I already have one friend that I worry about and care about that isn't doing shit really. I'm even trying to help him find a job and I live 170 miles away. It is not clicking. If it seems like everyone is passing you by its because they are. Get the fuck out of that town. It is a vortex for people our age that aren't going any where.

If it seems like I am being a prick its because I am. But I also care tremendously about you too.

Jonathon

Re: My two cents.

[uber_corp]

Thanks Jon Jon I appreciate your honesty. You're right...you're always right. I guess I needed to hear that. Thank you for always being my real friend and keeping my ass in the driver's seat.

Re: My two cents.

[uber_pdx]

Guess What...Ah fuck it, I will call you and tell you.

Uber Forever!