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I scrubbed the shower this morning, and that always makes me think of Pete.
Pete was my first. I never told him that, and if he suspected, he never brought it up. I came into my sexuality later than average, I was in my early 20's. Not because I was shy, or 'saving' myself - but really, because I just wasn't interested. Wasn't aware of myself as a sexual being. Wasn't really aware of myself at all if truth be told.
It took awhile for me to notice that Pete was 'interested' in me. Then, it took awhile longer, for me to realize that I was 'interested' in him. Everything clicked on Halloween night (how cool is that?). We were at a party (hey Devon, FREE BEER was playing)and I and every one else noticed that Pete couldn't keep his eyes of my chest or his hands to himself. I was literally swept off my feet into his bed. Well actually, into his shower. I'm not sure if I enjoy foreplay in the shower because of Pete, or because it was always in my nature - but there it is. Wanna have sex with me? First stop the shower. I have to say, I had a lot of fun with Pete, unfortunately, I had no idea of what I wanted physically, so sex was always a little 'off' for me. We never really dated - and were often 'seeing' others while still hopping into bed occasionally. Unfortunately, somewhere, something went wrong and we parted on not the best of terms.
But, I wasn't thinking about any of that while cleaning the shower this morning, I was thinking about the first time I ever saw Pete clean his shower. He stripped down, stepped in and scrubbed everything down, then proceeded to take his own shower. Up to that time, I had been cleaning the shower the way my mother taught me. Kneeling down, outside the tub, scrubbing and rinsing and getting water every where. The bathroom floor was always soaked after-wards. I was amazed and said so to him. He gave me one of his crooked smiles (yes, I am partial to crooked smiles)and shrugged and said it was a efficient man way of doing things. Well, man way or not, I started cleaning my shower that way and still do.
So here's to you Pete, I raise my sponge to you.
Pete was my first. I never told him that, and if he suspected, he never brought it up. I came into my sexuality later than average, I was in my early 20's. Not because I was shy, or 'saving' myself - but really, because I just wasn't interested. Wasn't aware of myself as a sexual being. Wasn't really aware of myself at all if truth be told.
It took awhile for me to notice that Pete was 'interested' in me. Then, it took awhile longer, for me to realize that I was 'interested' in him. Everything clicked on Halloween night (how cool is that?). We were at a party (hey Devon, FREE BEER was playing)and I and every one else noticed that Pete couldn't keep his eyes of my chest or his hands to himself. I was literally swept off my feet into his bed. Well actually, into his shower. I'm not sure if I enjoy foreplay in the shower because of Pete, or because it was always in my nature - but there it is. Wanna have sex with me? First stop the shower. I have to say, I had a lot of fun with Pete, unfortunately, I had no idea of what I wanted physically, so sex was always a little 'off' for me. We never really dated - and were often 'seeing' others while still hopping into bed occasionally. Unfortunately, somewhere, something went wrong and we parted on not the best of terms.
But, I wasn't thinking about any of that while cleaning the shower this morning, I was thinking about the first time I ever saw Pete clean his shower. He stripped down, stepped in and scrubbed everything down, then proceeded to take his own shower. Up to that time, I had been cleaning the shower the way my mother taught me. Kneeling down, outside the tub, scrubbing and rinsing and getting water every where. The bathroom floor was always soaked after-wards. I was amazed and said so to him. He gave me one of his crooked smiles (yes, I am partial to crooked smiles)and shrugged and said it was a efficient man way of doing things. Well, man way or not, I started cleaning my shower that way and still do.
So here's to you Pete, I raise my sponge to you.