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some say that i never should have gotten into this mess. some say that i should leave him. some say that i shouldn't put my self through this emotional roller-coaster with it being good one day and completely horrible the next. but i really don't want to listen to them, if it were anyone else, i would have never even started the relationship much less stayed in it this long, but with him its.... different. it's like i cant be mad at him. and if i am i still care about him more then any other guy i have known. i mean it's hard admitting to that, but i have decided my pride is going to have to be pushed aside with this one. it's hard because i don't know if he sees this as a small relationship seeing as all his other ones were so long and went realy far. some say that they have never seen my happier, some say they have never seen me this emotional. so who do i listen to and why should i? im tired of depending on everyone to make decession for me, but i dont really know how to make them on my own. im a spolied brat. but this one i am, im not going to listen to everyone who "knows all" or people who "know whats right" becuase no offence but those people aren't really to well off there selves. all i know is i love him, and when we talk, hug, kiss or just sit in silence in his truck holding hands, it feels right.