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so today was fun. went to school and all that fun stuff, and absolutely didn't fall alseep even though I was up untill like 3:30 talking to josh, that bully, even though it was my fault. anyways yeah so then i came home, did work, fell asleep, woke back up, talked to josh, figured out i was going to stephies (my sister-in-law in exactly 22 hours) bachlorete party, so i got ready for that, I didn't get to go to the fun part, just the dinner, but it was still funny watching everyone get drunk, although it made me want a drink ohh so badly. yeah and all the wedding talk and stuff put me and my mother into a very talkative mood. I love it when me and my mom get into deep conversations. the only thing is that she seems so understanding, and she is, like I completely get her, and her the same for me, it makes me want to tell her everything I have done that bad, like get it off my sholders and let her know exactly waht im going through, because I know she will find out sooner or later, and the fact that I kept it from her will devastate her, but I also cant be the cause of more stress right now for her. Whenever we have deep conversations, it makes me want to stop being bad all together, so there is nothing that I can do to hurt her, but I know that that wont happen. Drinking and smokeing can be stopped no problem, but I mean grades, and just littel stuff i can't stop, im going to live my life how I live it, and the last thing i want to do is hurt her, but sometimes shit happens, I hope that dosn't make me sound insensative. Anyways Travis's wedding is tomorrow, hopefully dad wont make me go to school, mom said i can stay home, cause we have so much to do, i also have to write a speach, that should be fun. well im off, its bath time, then im headed to bed while on the phone. love yall!!