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so i hung out with brets sister megan tonight. we got coffee and we saw rent.than i took her home and she got in trouble because apparantly she has a curfew but she told me she didnt.. so i got bitched at by bret..who i didnt think was gonna be there to begin with. he made me feel like complete shit so when i got home i sent him a message telling him to not talk to me anymore. this all hurts so bad but i dont need this to drag on and feel worse than it already does. why does all this shit always have to happen to me.
i fucking hate christmas, i miss my mom so much right now, i have like the worst empty feeling ,my dad is completely broke and its begining to worry me,plus hes becoming an asshole again,we arent celebrating this holiday at all, im an unmotivated disapointment and i cant bring myself to do what i know i have to do,i have about two people in my life right now that are even keeping me somewhat sane , i dont know how to adjust to being alone ..i hate being alone ,and i hate the way things have turned out. whenever things go good they really really go shitty. if i disapear its because im sleeping as much as i can.
i fucking hate christmas, i miss my mom so much right now, i have like the worst empty feeling ,my dad is completely broke and its begining to worry me,plus hes becoming an asshole again,we arent celebrating this holiday at all, im an unmotivated disapointment and i cant bring myself to do what i know i have to do,i have about two people in my life right now that are even keeping me somewhat sane , i dont know how to adjust to being alone ..i hate being alone ,and i hate the way things have turned out. whenever things go good they really really go shitty. if i disapear its because im sleeping as much as i can.