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I. Where have I been in my life this last two weeks?
It’s been a struggle back and forth between being content with how things were going then realizing I was rushed for time in many aspects and all out of sort. I sit sometimes and feel like I have no cares in the world and then an hour later you’ll see me rushing around stressed out about what I have due. It’s kind of crazy, it’s like my mind wanders and I forget about my responsibility and just drift to I guess what you could call a “happy place.” Then snap I’m back to reality when someone mentions something like academic advising or degree program or paper, all of a sudden I’m rushing to figure out what and when I need to get things done. It’s stressful, I stopped making to-do lists this semester and I really need to start that again, I only crack open my agenda once a day when last semester it was never shut. I have started to slack so much, and I know that it is part to do with the spring semester, always my most difficult semester because I’m ready for summer, but at the same time just pure laziness. I am definitely not myself this semester when it comes to school. None of my teachers know me as the 4.0 student that I use to be, and that hurts, but at the same time I’m at the point where it’s like who cares, which is even worse. I mean I am noticing more concern now that the end is getting near, but at the same time its not enough to please the person I use to be. I need to fix this.
II. What I have learned about myself these past two weeks?
I know that after I exercise I feel so much better about who I am and what I’m here for and just my outlook period is much more optimistic, so I definitely need to keep that up. Need to start managing my money so much more better, it’s horrible how bad I do with my money. Which reminds me…I need to check my account. Last year I would have never asked my mom for money and what have I done at least five times this year? Asked. My friend and I were talking last night and saying how if we just did one hour of homework or studying a day we would both do so much better. One hour is not hardly any time at all, if I took away my internet time for homework I would be a genius. So I need to start making an hour for me to do homework, type notes, read up on something, highlight, just anything to keep me fresh and aware of what’s going on in my classes. I think I’m going to start doing that, along with a to-do list. A to-do list helps me get things done, I need to start making to-do lists. And once again watch my money.
III. What do I want in my life this coming week?
First of all I want to make a to do list, second of all I want to accomplish everything on that to do list within two weeks time. I also want to pay my mom back money or take her out to eat. This weekend, because my parents deserve it I am going to go home and clean the house completely dust free, and for my dad clean the garage and possibly wash his truck depending on the weather. I need to stop being so self involved, realize how much my family means to me, what all they do for me and what little I do for them. And for my brother write him a nice email. I need to do the stuff that makes you feel good inside, but do it because I know that they deserve it and much more. Finally I have realized how selfish I’ve been and now I can fix it. Also, for myself, I want to go on a date with a great guy, not judge solely on looks like I normally do, and at the same time not lead him on, I have the tendency to do that. I am ready to get myself together, starting today.
IV. I am thankful for..
There is no doubt I am thankful for my parents and family. I am thankful that I still have a grandmother living that calls, and although I’m nerved at her horrible timing, I love the fact that she thinks about me and misses me. I am thankful for my best friend Lori, I cannot begin to explain how much she means to me, we finish each other’s sentences, know what the other’s thinking, and no matter what would always stand up for the other if someone talked down. We trust each other, and it’s nice to know I have someone there that I can faithfully put so much trust into. It’s without a doubt a good feeling. I am thankful that my brother put up a basketball goal at his house now, because although I seem to use him for his basketball goal, he doesn’t know but I’d honestly prefer to go to the park and shoot. I go there so that I can see him and remember how much he means to me, I’m so thankful that his love is unconditional, maybe one day we’ll be best friends again. There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t mention to someone that my mother is my best friend. I am so thankful for the relationship we have and will always have. I love my friends and family. I’m thankful. Oh and I’m thankful for Patty helping me with my advising today, I’d been so more far behind if it weren’t for her.
It’s been a struggle back and forth between being content with how things were going then realizing I was rushed for time in many aspects and all out of sort. I sit sometimes and feel like I have no cares in the world and then an hour later you’ll see me rushing around stressed out about what I have due. It’s kind of crazy, it’s like my mind wanders and I forget about my responsibility and just drift to I guess what you could call a “happy place.” Then snap I’m back to reality when someone mentions something like academic advising or degree program or paper, all of a sudden I’m rushing to figure out what and when I need to get things done. It’s stressful, I stopped making to-do lists this semester and I really need to start that again, I only crack open my agenda once a day when last semester it was never shut. I have started to slack so much, and I know that it is part to do with the spring semester, always my most difficult semester because I’m ready for summer, but at the same time just pure laziness. I am definitely not myself this semester when it comes to school. None of my teachers know me as the 4.0 student that I use to be, and that hurts, but at the same time I’m at the point where it’s like who cares, which is even worse. I mean I am noticing more concern now that the end is getting near, but at the same time its not enough to please the person I use to be. I need to fix this.
II. What I have learned about myself these past two weeks?
I know that after I exercise I feel so much better about who I am and what I’m here for and just my outlook period is much more optimistic, so I definitely need to keep that up. Need to start managing my money so much more better, it’s horrible how bad I do with my money. Which reminds me…I need to check my account. Last year I would have never asked my mom for money and what have I done at least five times this year? Asked. My friend and I were talking last night and saying how if we just did one hour of homework or studying a day we would both do so much better. One hour is not hardly any time at all, if I took away my internet time for homework I would be a genius. So I need to start making an hour for me to do homework, type notes, read up on something, highlight, just anything to keep me fresh and aware of what’s going on in my classes. I think I’m going to start doing that, along with a to-do list. A to-do list helps me get things done, I need to start making to-do lists. And once again watch my money.
III. What do I want in my life this coming week?
First of all I want to make a to do list, second of all I want to accomplish everything on that to do list within two weeks time. I also want to pay my mom back money or take her out to eat. This weekend, because my parents deserve it I am going to go home and clean the house completely dust free, and for my dad clean the garage and possibly wash his truck depending on the weather. I need to stop being so self involved, realize how much my family means to me, what all they do for me and what little I do for them. And for my brother write him a nice email. I need to do the stuff that makes you feel good inside, but do it because I know that they deserve it and much more. Finally I have realized how selfish I’ve been and now I can fix it. Also, for myself, I want to go on a date with a great guy, not judge solely on looks like I normally do, and at the same time not lead him on, I have the tendency to do that. I am ready to get myself together, starting today.
IV. I am thankful for..
There is no doubt I am thankful for my parents and family. I am thankful that I still have a grandmother living that calls, and although I’m nerved at her horrible timing, I love the fact that she thinks about me and misses me. I am thankful for my best friend Lori, I cannot begin to explain how much she means to me, we finish each other’s sentences, know what the other’s thinking, and no matter what would always stand up for the other if someone talked down. We trust each other, and it’s nice to know I have someone there that I can faithfully put so much trust into. It’s without a doubt a good feeling. I am thankful that my brother put up a basketball goal at his house now, because although I seem to use him for his basketball goal, he doesn’t know but I’d honestly prefer to go to the park and shoot. I go there so that I can see him and remember how much he means to me, I’m so thankful that his love is unconditional, maybe one day we’ll be best friends again. There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t mention to someone that my mother is my best friend. I am so thankful for the relationship we have and will always have. I love my friends and family. I’m thankful. Oh and I’m thankful for Patty helping me with my advising today, I’d been so more far behind if it weren’t for her.