I'm such an asshole
I feel like such shit....last night I broke up with Chuck....I feel like I can't let anyone in...like boyfriend wise. It is stupid but I feel I can't have someone attached to me. cuz I need to sort things out with me and know if this is what I want and not just some way to clog the real problems I'm having with myself....He makes me wicked happy and everything but I can't deal with myself and all my feelings when I have someone who needs attetion and wants to be loved and love me....which is a good thing but I can't have that. It just turns into stress for me....This time that we are broken up I don't know if we will get back together I'm not saying we won't. I'm gonna focus on me and hanging out with friends and having fun with them....friends does include Chuck because he is important to me and I want him happy even though I'm hurting him...I don't know if that makes sense but in my head and my heart it does....
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