well here is update

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so yesterday which was sunday me and tj went to the mall lokking for cool jackets hahaha well with the luck we have we were unsuccesful seeing as it is already gonna be spring all the winter stuff is gone but whatever!!!!! so he got two indie rock cds and i was gonna get the armsbendback cd but didnt have enough do with me so i got the funeral for a friend cd which is very good although they sing so much they are good....we also got hustled by soem black guy for a burned cd he ended up taking two dollars from us damn that guy was a good ass sales man ahhaha whatever its cool. so today was pretty slow just like any other school day i dont the weather i guess made me feel lifeless today i felt so cold all damn day and just wanted to come home and sleep gosh last night i prayed to God i actually sat their and told him in a prayer how i felt about my life and myself he knows what i sad the point is i guess it felt kinda good to know that someone out there knows i am alive. i guess my problem is i worry about everyone else too much and i forget about myself i guess i just always belived that if i helped others they would do they same for me i still have yet to see some results...there is actually this girl who i am fascinated with she doesnt go to my school but she just seems so cool i just wish she would notice me like i notice her i have talked to her a couple times but not enough...she doesnt even know who she is...that makes me insecure i guess in society's eyes but what can i do? i am insecure if i ever felt any kind of feeling for someone i dont think i would ever tell them for fear of being hurt or rejection, but its the stroy of my life...well not much too look forward to for this weekend, but i sure cant wait for practice with the guys on friday that should be fun i finished writing lyrics for the song we finished so it should go well and we can work on soemthing new now well i dont really have much else to say but i am fucking cold ahahha well talk to you tomorrow........

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Mr. Insecure