Aug 04, 2004 22:04
Wow! One year ago my Scott died. I never knew how much you could love a friend until Scott died. To wake up each morning and your heart still be crying and yearning to see his face. To have one more conversation with him. To get one more hug. To feel the love that he showed everybody.... Well, I guess on a good note I unlike other people have officially lasted a year! Without Havenwyck( if you don't no you don't need too!) Sory for you that dont e-mail me and maybe i'll tell you! Back to Scott! I talk to Patty alot. She is my strength and inspiration to not let Scott's death ruin me. I spent Monday and Tuesday crying because one year ago Monday was when I last talked to him! If I would have only talked for 2 moreminutes what could have we talked about. Like I look bacjand every minute counts majorly! I guess that reality mademe call Klara today. What would I do without my bestf riend and what in the fuckin world was I thinking by not calling her! Was I fuckin' stupid!
I love to my best friends of the past , present and future.
Klara you have always been there for me and I'msorry that I ever stopped calling you! I love you baby anmd we will be friends foprever!!!!!!! Green and Gold 4-life!
Scott You were always there for me annd even though you are gone your place in my heart with forver be there.
Most importantly Anthony maybe some day you'll read this! I love you! You are the most important person to me! To see you with OUR neice and nephew makes me think what are OUR kids going to be like! I love you and you have made me and my life family and my heart so much better! I love you BABY!