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[u_destroyed_me]

today is the worst day.
this weekend was the worst.
it was ruined.
i did this to myself.
i let ppl walk all over me.
im done with that.
dont walk all over me unless you wanna get yelled at.
i'm not taking shit from anyone anymore.
you wont walk all over me.
any of you.
im heartbroken.
i hurt very badly.
nothing you can say will help.
no body can help this situation.
and when you all talk to me, it makes me feel worse.
let me deal with this by myself.
if i wanna talk about it, i'll talk.
dont hassle me.
it pisses me off.
it makes me wanna yell and scream and cry.
i havent stopped crying all day.
im really gonna miss him.
and its my fault.
i ruined every chance i could have had.
now i gotta deal with the consequences.
i probably wont have him ever again.
it sucks.
im sure i'll get over it in a couple of years.
big part of me is gone.
very big.
somethings you just cant take back.
i dont regret him.
i really was in love.
i still do love him.
i just regret some decisions i made.
i cant stop crying.
i hate this.
i want the games to end.
i want to know whats happening.
its it completely over?
or is it just a temporary fight?
im too scared to call him.
we'll start a bigger fight.
whatever.
you love.
you lose.
you will still live.