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today started off really bad. i had to wake up at 8:30 to leave jenna's because her and her mom had to go somewhere. one of my favourite pairs of jeans has a hole in the ass. i broke a barette that i really like. i was tired, and lonely and sad(because this whole break has been filled with people, so not being with anyone is really depressing). i realized that spring break has come to an end, and even though i would do anything to have more of it... there's nothing i can do. this has been the best spring break i've ever had, and now its over ::sad::

lately i've been wondering why i'm not trying hard to make things the way i want them,... and today i figured out it's because i just dont care. fuck it, i don't give a damn anymore. i'm tired of fighting life and its horrible encounters,... i'm ready to take them regardless of the pain.

luckily i was hit with optimism when i saw chris tonight. when i'm down, he usually makes me feel better, and he did today. chris is an example of good in this horrible world--- and i'm not talking about angelic good, i'm talking about a person who makes me happy). between him and mashed potatoes, i know i'm gonna be okay. i still don't really give a shit, but i've come to the conclusion that everywhere theres a bad turn in life, a good turn is up ahead.