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so it's official, i've become one of those terribly awkward people who assume a certain degree of intimacy where there no longer is any. i speak to people with terms of endearment and of personal matters that i haven't spoken to in far too long. i accidently just continue where it was over, because as far as i seem to be concerned it never was 'over' per say. just because we haven't spoken doesn't mean we're not friends anymore, you're still somewhat dear to me, and i have no desire to speak in awkward pleasentries of how's the wife and kid's etc. i'd rather not talk to you then go back to that. i probably do it to people i've just met too. i wouldn't be suprised, share to much to soon, hug too much too soon, call you darling, honey, sweetie or whatever sooner then i probably should. get attached way to quickly (and no this is not a direct reference to my current love life, i mean this in general though in honesty love life included, but not the current one..i ramble and justify. anyway.) and it takes me too long to let go. but we've always known that about me. that goes along with my assumption of intimacy. that it's still okay to be what we were then. talk like we did then. and i miss for too long. maybe if i just stopped leaving..? in any case. it's back to paper writing and procrastination and less emo mumbled rumblings.