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A friend seemed frightened by the seemingly intense spirituality of these past entries, and I in turn became frightened. Perhaps unnecessarily so?
I think I should be careful to speak in my voice, and not take on the stereotypical voices of those who usually speak of what we are and how we connect to the larger reality and the mysteries of existence by using flowery words like spirituality, God, holiness, devotion, souls, unity. Too often these things are spoken of in ways that make them sound mystical and strange and detached from life and alien to most agnostic/atheistic peoples' experiences. When really, if described most purely, most accurately, they ought to resonate with every single person on the planet. Religious-esque ideas that don't emotionally resonate with the vast majority of people probably are simply not the truth.
I should stop using the word "soul". I don't really believe in the soul- or at least- don't know what the word refers to, don't see it as something distinct from the brain and body, don't see it as something that lasts beyond the lifespan of the body- or-well- I don't know- I would rather use the word "pattern" or "influence"
dammit I just got very sleepy
feeling overhyped up in my conversation with C. (a coworker) over lunch, describing my life lately, it sounded overstuffed, too many bright colors and exploding fireworks interspersed with overly intense contemplation and I think he was finding it beautiful and strange and entertaining but the more entertained and astonished he got the more frightened I became of myself, and my life, this life, this way we (our we- our co-op and u-of-c crowd etc. we) live. Wondering if it won't perhaps make us explode?
I am glad of Shabbat.
I need to sleep before Shabbat starts- maybe can at Jon's? That'd be ideal.
I think I should be careful to speak in my voice, and not take on the stereotypical voices of those who usually speak of what we are and how we connect to the larger reality and the mysteries of existence by using flowery words like spirituality, God, holiness, devotion, souls, unity. Too often these things are spoken of in ways that make them sound mystical and strange and detached from life and alien to most agnostic/atheistic peoples' experiences. When really, if described most purely, most accurately, they ought to resonate with every single person on the planet. Religious-esque ideas that don't emotionally resonate with the vast majority of people probably are simply not the truth.
I should stop using the word "soul". I don't really believe in the soul- or at least- don't know what the word refers to, don't see it as something distinct from the brain and body, don't see it as something that lasts beyond the lifespan of the body- or-well- I don't know- I would rather use the word "pattern" or "influence"
dammit I just got very sleepy
feeling overhyped up in my conversation with C. (a coworker) over lunch, describing my life lately, it sounded overstuffed, too many bright colors and exploding fireworks interspersed with overly intense contemplation and I think he was finding it beautiful and strange and entertaining but the more entertained and astonished he got the more frightened I became of myself, and my life, this life, this way we (our we- our co-op and u-of-c crowd etc. we) live. Wondering if it won't perhaps make us explode?
I am glad of Shabbat.
I need to sleep before Shabbat starts- maybe can at Jon's? That'd be ideal.