Ничья
Monday was very busy. Gym in the morning, coffee with Daniel after, three-hour interview for Greenpeace, then a finally a meeting with Ryan.
Coffee with Daniel was very good, and very relaxed. He was a bit out of it, as he had drunk quite a lot on Saturday night, sleeping it off on Sunday.
My interview worried me quite a lot. I was the only Australian Citisen there, and they wanted us to sign over out details right after the interview. When I asked Delphine to give me some time to think about it, I was taken into another room and questioned about it. I have worked in a similar job, which was the worst job experience I ever had… so I felt that I needed to give it a bit of thought. They reassured me that the experience that I had with my similar previous job will not again come to pass in Greenpeace, but I felt very uncomfortable in affirming my position there. Their words shall either be disproved or proved in their actions. I eventually affirmed my position, but I shall be seeking other options tout de suite.
Ryan was an hour late. He never apologised... so i made him shout me. Conversation drifted from subject to subject, but eventually it came back to me. I am quite emotionally detatched from people in general, but I am now seeing a directly negative manifestation of my actions in Ryan. However i am learning a lot about myself from Ryan... so i guess i can't complain.
Tuesday night was quite hot and humid. Shy and I were watching Alien Vs. Predator, then all the electricity in the house switched to half power… so we decided to go to the movies.
Memoirs of a Geisha was one of the most inspirational films that I have ever seen. The filmography was very good, the music was done by John Williams (thus very good). I only have two quarms with the film; it had the potential to be more powerful than it was, but was censored, and the cello work was done by Yo Yo Ma.
Wednesday was quite busy once again. I went up yonder way to Joondalup to do my enrolment. One hour and fifteen minutes later, I arrive on campus. I think I need to move a wee bit closer. Enrolment went well though. I was in and out surprisingly fast. After that, I went to Motor City Blues, meeting up with vyxn , memnoch_tha_dev and a few other assorted homosexuals… which was quite humerous. I was impressed by some of the acting in that play, and turned out to be a good night all round. Unfortunately I believe I could’ve enjoyed it more if I didn’t have something on my mind. Sorry again harpoonblue that i couldn't stay around for long. You were amazing anyway. I was impressed.
Today was judgement day. Whilst entertaining before and after the act… it doesn’t feel quite closed, but I don’t want to tempt fate. It’s been hard enough over the last year without it having to continue on for any longer than it need be. I hate him so much for what he has done to my grandmother. I would sooner rip the flesh from his bones that aknowledge his presence.
Someone whom i adore intensely told me that she no longer had the time to see me unless we meet in passing on the road. I am so hurt that if i were to see her that i wouldn't attract her attention in any way. Similar things happen like this all the fucking time.
I apologise for my coldness to everyone. I have a lot of self-discovery to do.
Coffee with Daniel was very good, and very relaxed. He was a bit out of it, as he had drunk quite a lot on Saturday night, sleeping it off on Sunday.
My interview worried me quite a lot. I was the only Australian Citisen there, and they wanted us to sign over out details right after the interview. When I asked Delphine to give me some time to think about it, I was taken into another room and questioned about it. I have worked in a similar job, which was the worst job experience I ever had… so I felt that I needed to give it a bit of thought. They reassured me that the experience that I had with my similar previous job will not again come to pass in Greenpeace, but I felt very uncomfortable in affirming my position there. Their words shall either be disproved or proved in their actions. I eventually affirmed my position, but I shall be seeking other options tout de suite.
Ryan was an hour late. He never apologised... so i made him shout me. Conversation drifted from subject to subject, but eventually it came back to me. I am quite emotionally detatched from people in general, but I am now seeing a directly negative manifestation of my actions in Ryan. However i am learning a lot about myself from Ryan... so i guess i can't complain.
Tuesday night was quite hot and humid. Shy and I were watching Alien Vs. Predator, then all the electricity in the house switched to half power… so we decided to go to the movies.
Memoirs of a Geisha was one of the most inspirational films that I have ever seen. The filmography was very good, the music was done by John Williams (thus very good). I only have two quarms with the film; it had the potential to be more powerful than it was, but was censored, and the cello work was done by Yo Yo Ma.
Wednesday was quite busy once again. I went up yonder way to Joondalup to do my enrolment. One hour and fifteen minutes later, I arrive on campus. I think I need to move a wee bit closer. Enrolment went well though. I was in and out surprisingly fast. After that, I went to Motor City Blues, meeting up with vyxn , memnoch_tha_dev and a few other assorted homosexuals… which was quite humerous. I was impressed by some of the acting in that play, and turned out to be a good night all round. Unfortunately I believe I could’ve enjoyed it more if I didn’t have something on my mind. Sorry again harpoonblue that i couldn't stay around for long. You were amazing anyway. I was impressed.
Today was judgement day. Whilst entertaining before and after the act… it doesn’t feel quite closed, but I don’t want to tempt fate. It’s been hard enough over the last year without it having to continue on for any longer than it need be. I hate him so much for what he has done to my grandmother. I would sooner rip the flesh from his bones that aknowledge his presence.
Someone whom i adore intensely told me that she no longer had the time to see me unless we meet in passing on the road. I am so hurt that if i were to see her that i wouldn't attract her attention in any way. Similar things happen like this all the fucking time.
I apologise for my coldness to everyone. I have a lot of self-discovery to do.