Wow.
Like... Wtf?
Nothin new, really.
Been playin drums constantly. I've plateaued in skill, and its quite annoying. It feels like i can only play 2 beats, and one fill. I really want to be good again.
I've also plateaued in DDR skill, but i really havent been playing that often. Oh well.
I've lost all motivation to do anything. None of it really matters in the end, does it? The only reason it mattered before was because i could get better. It would give me enjoyment, and it would make a difference to me in the near future... But now that that isnt working either, i dont have much of a reason to do anything.
I'm going to try salvia sometime soon. I feel a need for insight and learning through hallucinations caused by an ethenogen, and it seems like Salvia is the most available, most effective, and safest means. Now i just need to figure out how i'm going to ingest it, and where/when to do it. I'd like to wait until after i send in my college applications, once it's all out of my hands and i've nothin to do but relax and wait for a reply. I'd also rather take a liquid extract, or chew leaves, instead of smoking... but the extract is expensive, and the leaves don't usually give the kind of effect i'm looking for.
I guess we'll just have to wait and see.
Your tears are all the pay i'll ever need.
Nothin new, really.
Been playin drums constantly. I've plateaued in skill, and its quite annoying. It feels like i can only play 2 beats, and one fill. I really want to be good again.
I've also plateaued in DDR skill, but i really havent been playing that often. Oh well.
I've lost all motivation to do anything. None of it really matters in the end, does it? The only reason it mattered before was because i could get better. It would give me enjoyment, and it would make a difference to me in the near future... But now that that isnt working either, i dont have much of a reason to do anything.
I'm going to try salvia sometime soon. I feel a need for insight and learning through hallucinations caused by an ethenogen, and it seems like Salvia is the most available, most effective, and safest means. Now i just need to figure out how i'm going to ingest it, and where/when to do it. I'd like to wait until after i send in my college applications, once it's all out of my hands and i've nothin to do but relax and wait for a reply. I'd also rather take a liquid extract, or chew leaves, instead of smoking... but the extract is expensive, and the leaves don't usually give the kind of effect i'm looking for.
I guess we'll just have to wait and see.
Your tears are all the pay i'll ever need.