Strange Phone calls
I hate it when someone calls and says "...I am going to call you later to talk about something"
Why freaking call me to tell me your going to call me later to talk. That just freaks me out because it makes me wonder why you need to talk to me. To make it stranger it is the person who called me he never calls me. I think to make it more understandable I have to give more information.
about 15 years ago when I was in college I worked part time in a small library. The frist 2 years I was there we did not have a branch manager so I kind of ran the show just not officially. One day our director Interviewed this guy and for me it was like love at frist sight or rather lust or want to get to know you better or something like that. At this time I knew or kind of knew I was gay and this guy was one of my frist crushes after I was honest to myself about what I wanted. Our directer asked me if she should hire him and I told her that I thought it would be a good idea, that I really liked him. Once he started I really did not look for anyone to date because I fell for this guy big time. Since he was new in the area I tried to use that as a way to get to know him better, but he would get close to me then pull back almost like he would give in then be like "oh my GOD your my employee" then step back. I finally became sick of this and meet and dated my frist boyfriend. Even though I had a boyfriend the hot and cold relathionship keep on going, but more cold on my side due to the fact I was now with someone. I have to say at times this guy had a temper and it was hard for him to hid it. I finnally left my employment there one because my boyfriend at the time (who I ended up with for 9 years) did not want me to work with this guy because you could see that I did care about him and my bf was very very jelous. Later the new director came to me and asked me about the funny stories I had told about my former boss. I just thought of them as funny things he did, but she used them to invite him to leave his job and he did. about once every few years I would look him up and give him a call to see how he was and normally we talked for hours. I know the frist time we tallked we talked for 4 hours then he had to go and he called me back that night and we talked 3 more hours. I has been like that every time I called him. This time I called him around Christmas and we talked for a long time and it was great as normal. Today out of the blue I get a call at work and it is him OMG it was him he was calling me not me calling him. He told me that he did not want to keep me but he needed to talk to me this weekend and he lost my cell phone number and wanted to know if I would give it to him again, so I did. I told him that he was not bothing me and it was ok if he wanted to talk, he told me no that he would call me tonight after work because he just felt like he needed to talk to me. Then he sounded like he had a cold so I asked if he was feeling ok and she said he had a cold and was taking something for it, but that he would call me later because he needed to talk. I told him ok.
Now I'm like what does he want to talk about.
OK now let me go back just a little he has never told me he was gay he has always kept who he was dating a secret from me and would never say a word about things like that to me. I figured he never wanted me to know he was gay. I know some guys he use to talk to were gay, but yet I never really knew but all my gay friends told me he was gay. and our buisness manager told me one time that he was a pervert and not to talk to him. I took that to mean that she knew he was gay one thing that I had wondered about was he told me one time that he knew of someone who had sex with another employee in the boiler room of a library and they were fired - that made me think it was him mainly because that would be the only way our buisness manager would have known about him - that it came out at his last job some how or she would have never known about it - plus she could not tell me details when I asked because she could not tell me what was in the file, just that he was a pervert.
So now I'm like does he want to ask me about what I said that promted him to get the invite to leave, does he want to admit that he has always been in love with me, does he just want to tell me he is gay, does he just want to know if there are any job opening around here - it is driving me crazy. Plus I have not had my anticrazy pills in a week so it makes all this worse because I can't focus well. Now I'm just like I want to know what he wants. Part of me hopes it is to tell me he is in love with me and wants to move back here to be with me. It is just strange because I'm the one who always calls him.
Why freaking call me to tell me your going to call me later to talk. That just freaks me out because it makes me wonder why you need to talk to me. To make it stranger it is the person who called me he never calls me. I think to make it more understandable I have to give more information.
about 15 years ago when I was in college I worked part time in a small library. The frist 2 years I was there we did not have a branch manager so I kind of ran the show just not officially. One day our director Interviewed this guy and for me it was like love at frist sight or rather lust or want to get to know you better or something like that. At this time I knew or kind of knew I was gay and this guy was one of my frist crushes after I was honest to myself about what I wanted. Our directer asked me if she should hire him and I told her that I thought it would be a good idea, that I really liked him. Once he started I really did not look for anyone to date because I fell for this guy big time. Since he was new in the area I tried to use that as a way to get to know him better, but he would get close to me then pull back almost like he would give in then be like "oh my GOD your my employee" then step back. I finally became sick of this and meet and dated my frist boyfriend. Even though I had a boyfriend the hot and cold relathionship keep on going, but more cold on my side due to the fact I was now with someone. I have to say at times this guy had a temper and it was hard for him to hid it. I finnally left my employment there one because my boyfriend at the time (who I ended up with for 9 years) did not want me to work with this guy because you could see that I did care about him and my bf was very very jelous. Later the new director came to me and asked me about the funny stories I had told about my former boss. I just thought of them as funny things he did, but she used them to invite him to leave his job and he did. about once every few years I would look him up and give him a call to see how he was and normally we talked for hours. I know the frist time we tallked we talked for 4 hours then he had to go and he called me back that night and we talked 3 more hours. I has been like that every time I called him. This time I called him around Christmas and we talked for a long time and it was great as normal. Today out of the blue I get a call at work and it is him OMG it was him he was calling me not me calling him. He told me that he did not want to keep me but he needed to talk to me this weekend and he lost my cell phone number and wanted to know if I would give it to him again, so I did. I told him that he was not bothing me and it was ok if he wanted to talk, he told me no that he would call me tonight after work because he just felt like he needed to talk to me. Then he sounded like he had a cold so I asked if he was feeling ok and she said he had a cold and was taking something for it, but that he would call me later because he needed to talk. I told him ok.
Now I'm like what does he want to talk about.
OK now let me go back just a little he has never told me he was gay he has always kept who he was dating a secret from me and would never say a word about things like that to me. I figured he never wanted me to know he was gay. I know some guys he use to talk to were gay, but yet I never really knew but all my gay friends told me he was gay. and our buisness manager told me one time that he was a pervert and not to talk to him. I took that to mean that she knew he was gay one thing that I had wondered about was he told me one time that he knew of someone who had sex with another employee in the boiler room of a library and they were fired - that made me think it was him mainly because that would be the only way our buisness manager would have known about him - that it came out at his last job some how or she would have never known about it - plus she could not tell me details when I asked because she could not tell me what was in the file, just that he was a pervert.
So now I'm like does he want to ask me about what I said that promted him to get the invite to leave, does he want to admit that he has always been in love with me, does he just want to tell me he is gay, does he just want to know if there are any job opening around here - it is driving me crazy. Plus I have not had my anticrazy pills in a week so it makes all this worse because I can't focus well. Now I'm just like I want to know what he wants. Part of me hopes it is to tell me he is in love with me and wants to move back here to be with me. It is just strange because I'm the one who always calls him.