Entropic
With every instance of apathy you express, I am being being pushed further away. The distance is starting to make my feel apathetic myself.... but I'm not sure if that's a complaint.. I feel surprisingly unemotional, even robotic lately. You know how it gets when everything is just coming at you at the same time. I just can't deal with all the stress simultaneously right now, so I decided not to deal with any of it at all. I am in that mode where I just know I have to get my homework done, and address my responsibilities and obligations, seeing things through to mindless completion.
To escape from some of this, I did what I used to do as a kid: Build a cave. I sat and played guitar in my makeshift dome for a couple hours, it sounded incredible. All the sound infinitely bounces back into your eardrums, creating more overtones and resonance inside the soundhole of my acoustic. It was a very nice, temporary escape. Tomorrow I'm going to set up the rhodes mic inside with a guitar stand and drape/door. I'll probably need a light too... Anyways, i'm obviously going to use it for recording now. I realize what i've been missing my whole life-->small places. I thought I was claustrophobic, but that's only with other people around. I find great pleasure in small, comfortable places when in solitude.
Lately, I have also been brushing my teeth with my left hand, eating and writing with my left hand, showering with my eyes closed, and basically just doing things the exact opposite way that I'm used to. I'm determined to increase my brain's neural pathways. I know, that's rediculous. But try it, its hard.
School early tomorrow.. I think I'm prepared for this semester, though it will be the most busy of any I have had before. 18credit hours @ DU, a music class in the city once a week, working in the photolab, giving four guitar lessons a week, ebc 3-4 times a week and luthier school in April. I would also like to take this writing workshop I've been looking at, but i'm not sure I can fit it in. I've begun making a list of my new 'get healthy' regimen, since being sick and crippled almost the entire break has really fucked me up. I'm pretty excited. What will this year bring for me?
Wow I actually wrote something with some substance.
Goodnight.
To escape from some of this, I did what I used to do as a kid: Build a cave. I sat and played guitar in my makeshift dome for a couple hours, it sounded incredible. All the sound infinitely bounces back into your eardrums, creating more overtones and resonance inside the soundhole of my acoustic. It was a very nice, temporary escape. Tomorrow I'm going to set up the rhodes mic inside with a guitar stand and drape/door. I'll probably need a light too... Anyways, i'm obviously going to use it for recording now. I realize what i've been missing my whole life-->small places. I thought I was claustrophobic, but that's only with other people around. I find great pleasure in small, comfortable places when in solitude.
Lately, I have also been brushing my teeth with my left hand, eating and writing with my left hand, showering with my eyes closed, and basically just doing things the exact opposite way that I'm used to. I'm determined to increase my brain's neural pathways. I know, that's rediculous. But try it, its hard.
School early tomorrow.. I think I'm prepared for this semester, though it will be the most busy of any I have had before. 18credit hours @ DU, a music class in the city once a week, working in the photolab, giving four guitar lessons a week, ebc 3-4 times a week and luthier school in April. I would also like to take this writing workshop I've been looking at, but i'm not sure I can fit it in. I've begun making a list of my new 'get healthy' regimen, since being sick and crippled almost the entire break has really fucked me up. I'm pretty excited. What will this year bring for me?
Wow I actually wrote something with some substance.
Goodnight.