Falling Away From Me =(
Why can't I be who I used to be?
Why am I changing in so many ways?
I can't comprehend this..
I can't understand this..
I'm falling away from who I used to be..
What's the matter with me?
Why do I have a new opinion each day?
It's killing me...
It's confusing me....
I'm falling away from who I used to be...
I can't truly grasp the world I once knew..
I can't actually hold onto something anymore..
I feel as though my mind has been cut away..
And the heart that I posess is the dominator..
There is someone I once loved...
I thought of him constantly..
Now, he has drifted away, and so have I.
Was it merely puppy love?
No, it was raw emotion.
There in.. lies the tragedy of lust and love..
He found another, and as he did...
I became acquainted with another from my past..
I came to love him...
He never stopped loving me...
I cannot stop thinking about him...
I've fallen away from who I used to be...
Now we talk about our future...
The lives that we're going to lead..
He wanted a military career...but now..
He wants to have a family, and to suceed..
And somehow....
This is the life I want to lead...
I'm happy... that finally..
I've fallen away, from who I used to be...
A small poem I've just created....
........
I can't decide, on whether my crush, was truly just a crush, or if it was truly love.. I wanted to say a million times to him, "I love you"... but I never could... I never could... to this day, I still can't.. because, .... I don't think I feel the same.. I suppose I could tell him, outright, that I do. It wouldn't mean the same now.... I still love him... but is it possible to love two people at once?
One, wants to take things slowly, and perhaps, we'll... have some sort of relationship one of these days...
The other, on the other hand, is my age.... he wants to have a life and settle down after years of wildness and partying.. He talks of starting a family later on in life.... dying while we're old... etc.. He wants to have a family to come home to...and a wife to love..
Perhaps I've grown up, in a given sense, .. perhaps I'm unlocking myself, showing myself to everyone around me... I have so many secrets that no one knows.... so many that not even those I trust dearly know.. Only he does...
God.. --;
~Isis
Why am I changing in so many ways?
I can't comprehend this..
I can't understand this..
I'm falling away from who I used to be..
What's the matter with me?
Why do I have a new opinion each day?
It's killing me...
It's confusing me....
I'm falling away from who I used to be...
I can't truly grasp the world I once knew..
I can't actually hold onto something anymore..
I feel as though my mind has been cut away..
And the heart that I posess is the dominator..
There is someone I once loved...
I thought of him constantly..
Now, he has drifted away, and so have I.
Was it merely puppy love?
No, it was raw emotion.
There in.. lies the tragedy of lust and love..
He found another, and as he did...
I became acquainted with another from my past..
I came to love him...
He never stopped loving me...
I cannot stop thinking about him...
I've fallen away from who I used to be...
Now we talk about our future...
The lives that we're going to lead..
He wanted a military career...but now..
He wants to have a family, and to suceed..
And somehow....
This is the life I want to lead...
I'm happy... that finally..
I've fallen away, from who I used to be...
A small poem I've just created....
........
I can't decide, on whether my crush, was truly just a crush, or if it was truly love.. I wanted to say a million times to him, "I love you"... but I never could... I never could... to this day, I still can't.. because, .... I don't think I feel the same.. I suppose I could tell him, outright, that I do. It wouldn't mean the same now.... I still love him... but is it possible to love two people at once?
One, wants to take things slowly, and perhaps, we'll... have some sort of relationship one of these days...
The other, on the other hand, is my age.... he wants to have a life and settle down after years of wildness and partying.. He talks of starting a family later on in life.... dying while we're old... etc.. He wants to have a family to come home to...and a wife to love..
Perhaps I've grown up, in a given sense, .. perhaps I'm unlocking myself, showing myself to everyone around me... I have so many secrets that no one knows.... so many that not even those I trust dearly know.. Only he does...
God.. --;
~Isis