Progress not of my own
It's a difficult situation when you see the one you've cared about for so many years, still even today, attacking life and doing things they've never attempted while they were with you. How amazing is it to see Christina making an apple pie from scratch, researching art, or getting excited about going to a museum? I've been waiting for this kind of
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It was never about you being not being worthy, it was about me and what I was going through and unfortunately they were issues we couldn't tackle together. Left you feeling unworthy and me feeling guilty :(
There couldn't be any effort towards you because I had never even put any effort towards me.
You didn't expect more because you also didn't know or love yourself enough (my opinion of course).
We were just young Matt. As much as you can say you were more ready for a family and may very well have been you were still young as far as choosing someone to have that with for good reasons you know.
I just don't think either of us knew ourselves enough to know what we wanted and needed and just jumped into life and things before knowing. It's made it a very rocky road, but we have beautiful children and every day life can begin over and over and we can still do so many things.
I know this is an old post but I was just thinking about things today.
Therapy helps some of the answers you have in this post. It truly does. Although I feel I'm just breathing out wasted air here because I try and try and you apparently feel you are just above it and it would be a waste. There is a problem right there preconceived notions before you even really know what it is about. I wish you would make an apt.
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