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I'm getting fat. I was walking to my jcom class and I was wearing this black shirt that had alot of static so it was clinging to my body. As I was walking I noticed how the shirt was clinging to my fat and when I walked I noticed a jiggle going on down there in the belly. I wanted to vomit. I was self conscious walking around and finally decided after taking my jcom test that I would go home in case someone who I knew would see me with my black clinging shirt clinging to my fat and say something to me. I really should start working out. I've been so tired lately though. I think I have mono. It's weird too when your tired inevitably you want to sit down and rest but when you sit down and rest all you become is more tired, which doesn't make any sense, when your tired you have to get up and do alot of things and you realize you have more energy. what the fuck.
I constantly am terrified and dismayed by cache valley. It's the worst when I'm actually driving around the town and have to come in contact with all the stupid drivers in their cars with their fucking ugly faces. These people fucking scare me, I don't know how I was raised here thank god i'm leaving.
I've been spending more time down in slc with scott and jared and invevitably all the other peeps, da crews. Which I have to say is a much needed release. Jared and Scott are so fawking funny, I love how we traipse around the town being fabulous and making fun of anything we can, luv it luv it! Seeing alot of people who I haven't seen in a long time, knowing we had our scuffles years back, seeing them, them seeing me and nodding, smiling and saying it's great that your back is the best recognition to receive. It makes me hesitant to move to sonoma county in Northern California because maybe I should just go to the U in salt lake and cause mayem in slc with the g-boys who i've grown up with. *shrugs* san francisco would be so bomb though, but so expensive. I've pretty much decided to go though, I'm only 21 and I feel that while i'm in my prime I should shape my philosophies in a different city, different state and hey if it doesn't work out I can always come back and go to the U. No waste of time at all, valuable valuable experience gained.
I constantly am terrified and dismayed by cache valley. It's the worst when I'm actually driving around the town and have to come in contact with all the stupid drivers in their cars with their fucking ugly faces. These people fucking scare me, I don't know how I was raised here thank god i'm leaving.
I've been spending more time down in slc with scott and jared and invevitably all the other peeps, da crews. Which I have to say is a much needed release. Jared and Scott are so fawking funny, I love how we traipse around the town being fabulous and making fun of anything we can, luv it luv it! Seeing alot of people who I haven't seen in a long time, knowing we had our scuffles years back, seeing them, them seeing me and nodding, smiling and saying it's great that your back is the best recognition to receive. It makes me hesitant to move to sonoma county in Northern California because maybe I should just go to the U in salt lake and cause mayem in slc with the g-boys who i've grown up with. *shrugs* san francisco would be so bomb though, but so expensive. I've pretty much decided to go though, I'm only 21 and I feel that while i'm in my prime I should shape my philosophies in a different city, different state and hey if it doesn't work out I can always come back and go to the U. No waste of time at all, valuable valuable experience gained.