Jan 15, 2007 21:57
So, we got together and watched the Illusionist, which is a fun movie, but kind of transparent, and during the viewing of said film it was made amply evident that this has indeed been a friendly thing, apparently she is getting out of a long term relationship and isnt ready for anything. However she said it was nice to be treated in a gentlemanly manner. This was curious to me because my southern traditional behaviour has back slid since i joined and well before that so i feel it stands as sad commentary on my fellows. I also went with some friends to a nice restaurant, during which it was remarked that i seemed to be in my element, dressed in a suit, using subtle conversation techniques rather than being direct about everything. It saddened me. I say this because i really do try to just be one of the guys, but i begin to loose hope that this shall ever be the case. I feel the inverse of a glass ceiling being placed upon me. I cannot rise because people feel i am too high class. I cant help but feel this makes me sound like an ass but I dont see the difference between "upper" and "lower" class as negative, just a difference, I try to get along with everyone. Another person was able to tell i was in the latrine stalls with no discernible clue to my eyes, when i asked how he knew hge replied, " Anderson, your probably the only man in the company who would choose that as his bathroom reading material" he refered to the Wine Spectator which i had placed on the floor for a moment while he walked in.