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That's it. I have reached my breaking point tonight. I am sick of doing everything to others, scraping the meat off of my bones for others, and not even getting a simple thanks from people. Fuckin people. If you were up to me, I would make sure that everyone would be gutted and humiliated. Stupid Life. Putting me through this illusion that to be alive is a wonderful thing. Why haven't I seen any benifits from it? HUH?? You wanna fuckin answer that, god damned life?!?!? That's right, you don't. Apparently, I don't matter. Most of my friends left me in a matter of days. I am dead inside. I don't think it would really matter to the world if I were dead on the outside. I am nobody's lap dog anymore. I'm done with caring for others. Why should I care for others if nobody cares about me!?! All my life, I have been doing things for everyone else, and very rarely looking out for myself. If life can't give me the only thing that I have ever wanted from it, so be it. It all changes here. The emotional heat from me is gone. I am cold.