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I have this weird feeling that something big is gonna happen soon. Not quite sure if it is gonna be bad, but it feels like it. Close to all my firends have shunted me. I am not sure why. Some kids at school, the guys from my skating group, my exs (Don't really care how they think, though). Almost everyone. My life has had to change durastically since I held the responsibility of having to move out the day I turn 18. I have been less energetic and less caring of my physical state. It's as though the anxiety has stabbed through my soul. Changes are hard for me, and now I have to deal wth one of the biggest changes in my life. I am not sure how I am gonna do it. I feel very depressed right now. Also, my mom was making fun of me by saying I am gonna live the life of a loser and sit at home playing video games all day. I think that I am a little bit more responsable than that. And considering that my friends are turning their backs on me...ughhh. I can't really find comfort right now. I find myself in my bed almost all day, trying to deal with the inner emotions. I wish I could cry right now, but crying, to me, is like giving up. Even though I know that it is far from it.