061. stumble.

[tyrannicides]

Nam Mellitus Erat, 061. stumble.
Late September.

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[tyrannicides]

my point is i'm actually insane.

I lav you.

In some ways it's so hard to reply to your comments because they are so incredibly nice. It's hard for me to know what to say except "omg thank you" while I silently gleeface in front of my computer about someone being into the things I'm into and liking all the stupid little things I put in there because I'm into them.

the shift of control and power

I THOUGHT THIS EXACT PHRASE. When I first started writing the chapter, it was Cesc getting sick, and then I decided, oh, okay, how cliche would that be, and not at all what I want. Unless there's a shift of power and Cesc can prove in some tangible way that he's not only self-sufficient, but capable of taking care of someone else on his own--that his, I mean, "dependence on" is the wrong word, but his role in his relationship with Iker is a choice. You know. If that isn't there, Iker'd be right for backing off of it, probably.

but i love the idea of pique as a foil to iker?



This is exactly what I want him to be. Like, a reflection of Iker who's straight and gets Cesc in a lot more trouble--a brother figure who also has no problem with his xtreme protectiveness of him. I know it's not going to be a love triangle or anything like that--I guess in some ways this reflects one of my own relationships: a really good friend of mine has an awesome boyfriend, but I am her other boyfriend. I mean, I'm her best girl friend, but what we have surpasses normal friend relationship. But it isn't physical at all? I just fill the role of another significant other. ...This is weird and not making sense, but that's what I want Pique to be. I feel like you need that kind of bulwark of support outside a SO, who gives you the emotional back-up without physical entanglements.

the idea of protection in a relationship, and whether it's wrong or right or deserved or unsettling is an issue i adore

I lav you and everything about this phrase. Never stop commenting. Thank you so much.

[tyrannicides]

i know lots of people like fabrique but idek, i can't see them as anything more than really awesome bros. who do bro stuff. it's the same reason i don't really get iker/sergio.

Yeah! I'm the same. If they absolutely have to mess around, I could only see it being in a broly way. Like wrestling in the showers and then being all WHELP WE'RE HARD. WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN. OH WELL LET'S GET THIS DONE. Then loling about it later, drunk. That's the only way it can even really happen in my head for me. Or if they were double-teaming a girl. BALLS AREN'T TOUCHING=NOT GAY. ...I need to write that. Also, there will definitely be more Pique and Cesc adventures. I'm thinking some kind of mishap with a shopping cart and a hill and a broken wrist or something.

And then Iker and Sergio are the same-ish, yeah. They're like, mature captain bros. I always forget the age difference between them. It's like I assume Sergio's in his late twenties, I don't know why. It hasn't happened as much lately though, since his haircut makes him literally look 18. ...Me gusta.