hmmm
yesturday sucked, then got better, last night it got worse, and then it got better.. and through all of this shit, i can defenitely say I have fallen too fucking hard for this kid. i read his journal.. made me realize a bunch of things... not bad things, well some, but mostly good. i feel soo bad for doing it. but i mean, come on he reads this without asking me first.. which, by the way im guna have to quit writing on here.. so im probably not guna write on here that often, r anymore.. I do love him, and sometimes i wonder if maybe Im the right person for him... i feel that maybe im just wanting too much attention and time from him, and he can't give it too me... well he can, and he does, but im not sure he's happy. I know im happy with him, i've actually never been so happy with someone... EVER... he just makes me smile.. and i hate it when im not with him... i think i really fucked up last night. and for that i cant appologize enough for. I dont want him to think im guna snoop around his room or anything, because im not like that.. he has his personal things, as I do.. and i respect that... but the journal was just sitting out on his desk.. and at first i thought it was a sketch book, cause thats what it looked like, but when i opened it, there was nothing but writing... OF COURSE IM GUNA READ IT... i just feel bad.. I dont want him to think he can't trust me.. because he can.. as i trust him...
life sucks sometimes.
life sucks sometimes.