i just dont know...

[typikalblonde]

the thoughts and feelings,
i feel right now
are unexplainable.
I dont know if i should feel
sad, angry, happy or disappointed,
i have an uneasiness running through my veins
i feel like i've been spinning
spinning non stop
on a roller coaster,
yea, a rollercoaster of life.
and no matter how hard i try to grab it
grab that one object
that will prevent me from spinning,
i can't.
no matter how hard i try.
it always seems to slip
slips right out of my hands.
this rythmic pattern
that always plays in my head,
seems to have skipped a few beats,
it's beginning to make a new pattern,
a pattern of disbelief.
Breathe.
Inhale the wonders of life
exhale the regrets,
and look forward to what comes next
this can't be real,
this feeling of disbelief,
not believing that
there is a plan for me
for once, not looking forward,
but remaining in the past.
Dwelling on those horrific nightmares,
that you call memories.
so many things on my mind at once.
Inhale,
Exhale
all of the stress that has been built up
these feelings that i feel,
are unexplainable.
I just don't know...