That's your nature isn't it?
It's okay. It's okay you can handle this.
Yes you can handle it.
You're stronger.
You're stronger.
More confident in yourself.
Your life is on the right track.
Your working towards your goals.
Your art is improving.
You're okay, don't let it bother you.
You're lying to yourself.
It does bother you.
But that's your nature isn't it?
But no.
You are stronger.
You are trying to be stronger.
For you.
For your family who worries for your future.
For your friends who want you to be happy.
But mostly for you.
Because you deserve happiness like anyone else.
You have to keep telling yourself that.
Or you'll fall.
You'll fall and no one will catch you.
It's happened before.
It just can't happen again.
Keep walking.
Keep telling yourself you'll be alright.
Don't cry.
But that's your nature....isn't it?
No, stop.
It's not worth it.
Your desire to be happy is stronger then your wanting to cry.
You cam do this.
Ignore the feeling.
Ignore the feeling that you'll be replaced again.
Because you wont be.
You have to keep telling yourself you wont be.
You have to stop thinking you're inadequate.
That you're a lost cause.
That you're insane.
You are a good person.
You try your best.
Is it good enough?
Alot of the time you feel it isn't.
But that's your nature isn't it?
That's your nature.
But Goddammit you try.
You fucking try harder then most people would.
You try so hard to convince yourself you're loved and happy and strong.
All the while trying to convince others of the same.
More often then not thinking of their happiness more then yours.
And it's hurt you more then once.
But that's your nature isn't it?
The people pleaser with a tendency to accept blame quickly.
Most people walk all over you, try to manipulate you.
They think you don't realize it.
But you do.
You just let them because you don't want to lose them.
A sad existence?
Maybe.
Does it hurt?
Always.
But you'd do anything to keep those closest to you.
Even if it means daily pain.
Your a cancer after all.
With your tough shell and sensitive insides.
Your emotional but tough.
You wont take shit if someone attacks your friends.
And even if someone attacks you you'll deflect it.
But it'll hurt alot.
Your the cancer.
That's your nature isn't it?
You want affection but it's hard for you to give yours.
You want someone with you all the time but you don't want them to resent you for it.
You want undivided love but cannot trust easily.
The scars wont let you.
The memories wont let you.
The past wont let you.
You'll still try though.
Even though you're not sure who you are.
Even though you're not sure if they'll leave you.
Even though you're not sure if you're strong enough.
This time you are.
This time you wont cry.
You'll ignore how you're feeling and distract yourself with things that make you happy.
Your fictional characters.
Your drawings.
Your friends.
But deep down you know it's futile.
All your trying, all your striving, all your lying.
But that's alright.
That's your nature, isn't it?
Yes you can handle it.
You're stronger.
You're stronger.
More confident in yourself.
Your life is on the right track.
Your working towards your goals.
Your art is improving.
You're okay, don't let it bother you.
You're lying to yourself.
It does bother you.
But that's your nature isn't it?
But no.
You are stronger.
You are trying to be stronger.
For you.
For your family who worries for your future.
For your friends who want you to be happy.
But mostly for you.
Because you deserve happiness like anyone else.
You have to keep telling yourself that.
Or you'll fall.
You'll fall and no one will catch you.
It's happened before.
It just can't happen again.
Keep walking.
Keep telling yourself you'll be alright.
Don't cry.
But that's your nature....isn't it?
No, stop.
It's not worth it.
Your desire to be happy is stronger then your wanting to cry.
You cam do this.
Ignore the feeling.
Ignore the feeling that you'll be replaced again.
Because you wont be.
You have to keep telling yourself you wont be.
You have to stop thinking you're inadequate.
That you're a lost cause.
That you're insane.
You are a good person.
You try your best.
Is it good enough?
Alot of the time you feel it isn't.
But that's your nature isn't it?
That's your nature.
But Goddammit you try.
You fucking try harder then most people would.
You try so hard to convince yourself you're loved and happy and strong.
All the while trying to convince others of the same.
More often then not thinking of their happiness more then yours.
And it's hurt you more then once.
But that's your nature isn't it?
The people pleaser with a tendency to accept blame quickly.
Most people walk all over you, try to manipulate you.
They think you don't realize it.
But you do.
You just let them because you don't want to lose them.
A sad existence?
Maybe.
Does it hurt?
Always.
But you'd do anything to keep those closest to you.
Even if it means daily pain.
Your a cancer after all.
With your tough shell and sensitive insides.
Your emotional but tough.
You wont take shit if someone attacks your friends.
And even if someone attacks you you'll deflect it.
But it'll hurt alot.
Your the cancer.
That's your nature isn't it?
You want affection but it's hard for you to give yours.
You want someone with you all the time but you don't want them to resent you for it.
You want undivided love but cannot trust easily.
The scars wont let you.
The memories wont let you.
The past wont let you.
You'll still try though.
Even though you're not sure who you are.
Even though you're not sure if they'll leave you.
Even though you're not sure if you're strong enough.
This time you are.
This time you wont cry.
You'll ignore how you're feeling and distract yourself with things that make you happy.
Your fictional characters.
Your drawings.
Your friends.
But deep down you know it's futile.
All your trying, all your striving, all your lying.
But that's alright.
That's your nature, isn't it?