I don't know what I'm doing.
It really hurts when I don't talk to you. Like...I don't know I feel guilty and I want to curl up because I don't like it when I'm not talking to you.
It's not like with my other friends. I can talk to them whenever and it doesn't really matter. We just pick up convos that we had days before. I don't have to see or speak to them for days and it's all good.
But I want your constant company. I want you constantly talking to me. You're the only one willing to because you feel the same way. Or at least I think you do.
I don't know maybe it's just me. I know you always say you're thinking about me but is that the same as wanting to talk to me all the time? Because I'm depressing and I rant a lot. Hell I've ranted to you like twice today and yet here I am ranting again.
And even though I'm annoyed I still want to talk to you. But you seem annoyed or indifferent so I let time pass because if I had responded right away then I might have snapped.
But now it's like over an hour later and I just feel like shit because you haven't said anything either but I don't want to dampen whatever mood you're in by being my usual moody self.
I just really don't like it when I'm not talking to you for whatever reason. It's silly and as much as I don't like it, that's just who I am.
It's not like with my other friends. I can talk to them whenever and it doesn't really matter. We just pick up convos that we had days before. I don't have to see or speak to them for days and it's all good.
But I want your constant company. I want you constantly talking to me. You're the only one willing to because you feel the same way. Or at least I think you do.
I don't know maybe it's just me. I know you always say you're thinking about me but is that the same as wanting to talk to me all the time? Because I'm depressing and I rant a lot. Hell I've ranted to you like twice today and yet here I am ranting again.
And even though I'm annoyed I still want to talk to you. But you seem annoyed or indifferent so I let time pass because if I had responded right away then I might have snapped.
But now it's like over an hour later and I just feel like shit because you haven't said anything either but I don't want to dampen whatever mood you're in by being my usual moody self.
I just really don't like it when I'm not talking to you for whatever reason. It's silly and as much as I don't like it, that's just who I am.