The highs are high but the lows...
My life is messed up! I sleep all day and stay awake in bed at night. I feel so alive when I am with my friends or active (yesterday i got smacked so hard with the soccer ball that i have pentagon-shaped welts on my leg) and i look at my homework and i just feel dead. how can i be so burnt out after three weeks? i can't even remember how to find derivatives. i have SO MUCH WORK! i just cry and cry and then i can't do my homework done. arg. in brighter news (brighter than me failing out of college), i joined the boxing club. i am in so much pain :^)
I just hate that i CAN'T do it...i'm a very responsible person...i meet expectations. but lately i just want to run away. get in my car and drive to somewhere and stay there. to not let anyone know where i am. to get some menial labor job so i can be tired and sleep peacefully at night. I HATE SCHOOL but there is no hope of rescue.
I just hate that i CAN'T do it...i'm a very responsible person...i meet expectations. but lately i just want to run away. get in my car and drive to somewhere and stay there. to not let anyone know where i am. to get some menial labor job so i can be tired and sleep peacefully at night. I HATE SCHOOL but there is no hope of rescue.