Into the Twilight Zone.......
So many things in this world are unexplainable, and as humans go we have an intense desire to explain EVERYTHING. I read yesterday in my text for my Intro to World Religions class, there were several articles that I really thought about sending to Lesley. Especially one on the systematic removal of the "orginal" god, who happened to be FEMALE. Then tere was the article about the embrace of "modern" churches being a response to the detachment from the spirit that people suffer from. Fear pushes them to seek systems of rules that help them feel more control, like that of Christianity. They are in truth seeking the spirit but finding religion, which isn't the spirit. I thought it was interesting. I have a feeling that I'm going to really like this class.
We watched "What the bleep do we know?" it raised some interest for me in the role of ones self in their own reality. Some of the people in the film were basicly saying that things happen to people in part due to their desire to expreience certain emotions. Like people who constantly say that bad things happen to them, they are (according to the speakers) addicted to the emotions that are associated with the bad experiences. I probably didn't expalin that clear enough, but the basic point is there. Its something to atleast ponder. The main character in the film who these situations were being explained through was allowing the bad experiences of her ex-husband to control every aspect of her life. She had developed a self loathing that poisoned any chance she was given to make things better. Basicly it was suggested that to move past the bad things and to make a better place for yourself you have to rewire your brain by seeing how things affect you and conciously change your response to them. Like seeing something that reminds you of someone you don't like anymore, you have to associate something better with that object or name so that in time it won't conjure the bad feelings/memories. I can see some application of this being very helpful, and I have done it without knowing that it could be so rewarding. I made my friends go bowling with me at the bowling alley that an ex of mine went to with me. I had fun with my friends, so now when I see that place that is the memory that is now associated with the place.
Ok now to the bizarre that is my life and family. My grandmother died in Febuary, as in she body is buried and covered with earth. Well, apparently my 2nd cousin (my cousin Mary's daughter and one of the flower girls in my wedding) Shadara has been talking to and seeing my grandmother. How about that? She is 6 years old. She knows what dead is, she has seen much of it in her young life. Her father died 2 yers ago, and she was with Mary when Mary found the body. It was bad, very bad. I remember last year when Sharada was talking to me about death. I can't imagine being 5 and understanding it so clearly. I did't when I was that age, I was 5 when my grandpa Marlwo passed. But back to the talking to mamaw. She had been refusing to go into the house that mamaw lived in, and where my aunt Norma (Shadara's grandmother) lives. When my mom aksed her why she wouldn't go, she said "Because mamaw Angel is there and she talkes to me. She isn't in that grave, she's in the house. I was scared but she was sitting on her bed and told me not to be scared. I don't want to go back up there. Mamaw Norma sees her too. She knows that she's there" Well mom being the person she is, asked my aunt if she'd been seeing or hearinf strange things. My aunt responded, "How did you know?" "Sharada told me" was mom's response. Now I can't stop thinking about it. Krista, my former roommate, told me that kids can sense those things because they are more open to it. Maybe, but that has to be very confusing for them. She asked mom why mamaw was there, mom told her that people's spirits miss people so they come back to see them. I think mom was trying to keep her from being scared. Its just so hard for me to wrap my mind around. I don't know how I would react if I had experienced what sha has.
We watched "What the bleep do we know?" it raised some interest for me in the role of ones self in their own reality. Some of the people in the film were basicly saying that things happen to people in part due to their desire to expreience certain emotions. Like people who constantly say that bad things happen to them, they are (according to the speakers) addicted to the emotions that are associated with the bad experiences. I probably didn't expalin that clear enough, but the basic point is there. Its something to atleast ponder. The main character in the film who these situations were being explained through was allowing the bad experiences of her ex-husband to control every aspect of her life. She had developed a self loathing that poisoned any chance she was given to make things better. Basicly it was suggested that to move past the bad things and to make a better place for yourself you have to rewire your brain by seeing how things affect you and conciously change your response to them. Like seeing something that reminds you of someone you don't like anymore, you have to associate something better with that object or name so that in time it won't conjure the bad feelings/memories. I can see some application of this being very helpful, and I have done it without knowing that it could be so rewarding. I made my friends go bowling with me at the bowling alley that an ex of mine went to with me. I had fun with my friends, so now when I see that place that is the memory that is now associated with the place.
Ok now to the bizarre that is my life and family. My grandmother died in Febuary, as in she body is buried and covered with earth. Well, apparently my 2nd cousin (my cousin Mary's daughter and one of the flower girls in my wedding) Shadara has been talking to and seeing my grandmother. How about that? She is 6 years old. She knows what dead is, she has seen much of it in her young life. Her father died 2 yers ago, and she was with Mary when Mary found the body. It was bad, very bad. I remember last year when Sharada was talking to me about death. I can't imagine being 5 and understanding it so clearly. I did't when I was that age, I was 5 when my grandpa Marlwo passed. But back to the talking to mamaw. She had been refusing to go into the house that mamaw lived in, and where my aunt Norma (Shadara's grandmother) lives. When my mom aksed her why she wouldn't go, she said "Because mamaw Angel is there and she talkes to me. She isn't in that grave, she's in the house. I was scared but she was sitting on her bed and told me not to be scared. I don't want to go back up there. Mamaw Norma sees her too. She knows that she's there" Well mom being the person she is, asked my aunt if she'd been seeing or hearinf strange things. My aunt responded, "How did you know?" "Sharada told me" was mom's response. Now I can't stop thinking about it. Krista, my former roommate, told me that kids can sense those things because they are more open to it. Maybe, but that has to be very confusing for them. She asked mom why mamaw was there, mom told her that people's spirits miss people so they come back to see them. I think mom was trying to keep her from being scared. Its just so hard for me to wrap my mind around. I don't know how I would react if I had experienced what sha has.