things
all in all yesterday was great...i will drop anything for a good powder day. fantastic.
all in all the other days, not so terrifically great.
it sucks thinking about careers, how im going to pay rent next month, graduate college, and stay happy through all of it?
i've given my parents a lot of grief and a lot of reason to worry over the last couple years and that covers my thinking with guilt.
as for the relationship. it's great too, but i wonder if its because i am so far away now. i wonder if its going as well as i feel like it is...i am in the disposal position now since I can't drive. i feel like it was mostly me before. part of me really enjoys driving and singing along to music in my car after work, but part of me also sees that things are always probably going to be a little one sided. so whether i want to or not, i quit for the next two months. either way, what is done is done. i am giving global warming a big old high five.
this stuff all feels pretty insignificant to think about.
i've decided that i need to embrace the things about me that are weird, and maybe it'll make these next couple of months more bearable...such as me getting my good amount of alone time every day, not drinking into an oblivion every day and writing every single day. other things i wont mention. weirdo.
anyways. school is almost back in. i'll have something to obsess over again. until thats gone. then i'm in trouble.
all in all the other days, not so terrifically great.
it sucks thinking about careers, how im going to pay rent next month, graduate college, and stay happy through all of it?
i've given my parents a lot of grief and a lot of reason to worry over the last couple years and that covers my thinking with guilt.
as for the relationship. it's great too, but i wonder if its because i am so far away now. i wonder if its going as well as i feel like it is...i am in the disposal position now since I can't drive. i feel like it was mostly me before. part of me really enjoys driving and singing along to music in my car after work, but part of me also sees that things are always probably going to be a little one sided. so whether i want to or not, i quit for the next two months. either way, what is done is done. i am giving global warming a big old high five.
this stuff all feels pretty insignificant to think about.
i've decided that i need to embrace the things about me that are weird, and maybe it'll make these next couple of months more bearable...such as me getting my good amount of alone time every day, not drinking into an oblivion every day and writing every single day. other things i wont mention. weirdo.
anyways. school is almost back in. i'll have something to obsess over again. until thats gone. then i'm in trouble.